#7.24.25

7.24.25

Briana via her IG story 🖤

But the reality is, in a few months when I sense that it will all start shifting, I will miss it here. I’ll miss where I live now, because when we first moved in, it was everything I had wanted at that time. I still love it, it’s just too small for us now. And I’ve always wanted to work at the same place as my grandma, and I do. These were my manifestations, too, and I will miss this period of my life, even if I will be moving into something more aligned for who I am now. I will miss the people, even if they annoy me sometimes, and I’ll miss getting up every morning and riding to work with grandma. These are treasured times, even if I get annoyed or frustrated or restless in them.

I think often of the fact that I don’t know if my boyfriend and I will stay together long-term. His youngest won’t be 18 for another 6 years, and he can’t move because of his job. I could manifest those roadblocks away, but it’s a lot of moving parts, and it would be hard on my conscience, I think vs. letting it go and moving into something more aligned without having to manifest it to change. I know I CREATED the circumstances, and I understand why I did—it’s what I needed. The only way I was going to allow love in. And it has been wonderful and glorious and instrumental for my growth, and if we do have to end things at some point, it will hurt and I will miss him so, so incredibly much.