#6m13

well fuck.

I can't stop thinking about our first kiss. Or the way the sunlight hit your eyes that evening. The way you smell How you'd wake me up by covering me in kisses The way you held me. The sound of your voice. Your smile. I miss you every second of everyday.

I spend every second of everyday missing you. I miss the way you used to look at me. I miss your smile. I miss your kisses. I miss falling asleep and waking up next to you. I miss all of it. And I'm hoping so much that you'll come back.

I love spending Sunday mornings tangled up in you

I’m sitting in the airport waiting to go back to NC and it doesn’t feel real and I just don’t know how to handle it and I know that as soon as I get back I’m going to realize that I’m really actually not going to see my best friends for like a month and I’m afraid I’m going to cry

but on a good note today technically makes one month for oren and I which I know is dumb to keep track of but also I just kind of assumed that he would get tired of me by now because that's always how things seem to go for me so that's a plus

In good news for once: - things with oren and I are great like I actually feel like I deserve to be happy and I deserve him - lyla is the greatest good I am ever going to get - I literally have the best friends ever let me tell you - Oren and I went to a party together and we danced and honestly it was amazing and I looked hot af idgaf - he literally makes me so happy oh man - I declared a major this week, and I've chosen Medical Illustration and I can't wait to see what that holds in store for me!