#6err

Sebastian tilts his head. He's not sure that it gives him any new information about the other, but it is something that he always tries, just in case. Right now, the human seems to be doing the exact same, though, most don't act this way.

Oops! He's been caught spying! Hmm. Having a physical body now certainly has a few issues here and there. He's quick to try and float himself up to a safer distance. Can't get too close right now.

smiles so widely this is a good one. here's the funny thing bill actually seems to be the most forgetful about things that are important to him. it lead to his downfall in weirdmagedon, he got so cocky in his plans he didn't even like. he can see the outcomes of the future and what's most likely! if he checked he could've probably seen oh this is heading down the path where i Die but he didn't because he was like psh... that's not even gonna happen. he's not very detail oriented like you might expect out of him.

however comma that's more of forgetfulness/careless rather then if he's forgotten anything. which he has. a lot of things, actually! He hasn't straight up forgotten what happened to his home dimension, he still like... knows what happened in the back of his mind. those memories are just so far repressed he basically can't pull them back up to the surface. at least not without a breakdown or blacking out. however! other things that are like.. adjacent to that do end up being entirely forgotten. like for example, taking over other dimensions! he goes into doing that, realizes ooooooh this is just like what happened to my home dimension, and sorta "reliving" that experience just causes him to like. black it all out. not saying that he doesn't make that active choice to do that or anything, he's like yeah i'll do this in aaaaa fun way yay!! and then things start burning and people start screaming and things start crumbling and hes like oh this is not as fun all the sudden. and then when its over and done with it sorta just gets really fuzzy until he cant even remember what happened there so he's like yay let's do it again! not to mention that like. the nightmare realm is a dimension that is actively crumbling and dying from very early on, dragging other dimensions into it is kinda the only thing keeping it alive so unless he wants to confront the reality of just letting it die, which we all know he has problems facing the music, he sorta cant do much else. plus! all his friends who live there with him are watching!! cant let them know that destroying things like that is a little distressing!! think of your merciless god persona!!

all that to say he tends to not remember important things whenever it like.. drags up those memories about home. stuff that reminds him of traumatic incidents. im sure if some like horrible medical incident happened to him in current day outside of the backstory medical horrors, he wouldn't remember that very well afterwards either, etc.

@6err wrote:

stan when toffee peanuts are pulled from the shelves

I CAN'T FUCKING BREATHE. no doubt the upset sound that came from him could be all throughout gravity falls, if not the country. it was truly one of his darkest days, it's up there with the day he lost ford.

' right - my whole life i've been nothing less than a SAINT ! my cellmates down in columbia would get a real KICK out of that one. '

his response is almost on IMPULSE , chuckling to himself as another bottle of pitt is cracked open, to add to their accruing stack. it takes more than a moment for his brother's statement to truly SINK IN.

' oh , you're bein' SERIOUS. '

wry smile is quickly replaced something more - CONFUSED. sadder.

OFC OFC. the main chunk of it is me seeing teen stan and just. every butch on this earth comes into the world with this exact fit, rolled sleeves and all.

besides that i feel like most of his behaviors its just so butch to me. learning how to rebuild a world-ending portal on his own with no real knowledge of physics ? butch. keeping a car from the 70s running continually for over 30 years ? butch. his incredibly long list of crimes ? you guessed it, butch as well.

@6err

it feels difficult to stand, more difficult than it has ever felt before. while sebastian does not age in the typical sense, he still has signs of it. pieces that break down, connectors that get faulty and need replacing. right now, he assumes that this is what it must feel like when humans are so close to that edge of consciousness. he is tired, and his whole body is far too warm. the lights on his chest are blinking various shades of red and orange, which can be seen through his plastic skin. it is not a very good look, but he does not care.

"what do you mean?" the question takes longer for him to process than it should. it does not help that his face feels weird with oil all over it, hands only able to do so much about his tears. they have stopped, but only because he was running out of extra fuel to give away. otherwise, he's not sure he would ever stop crying.

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he thinks on these words before responding. there is the immediate instinct to correct ford, to remind him that he is not human. as close as seb can get, he will always been mechanical parts haphazardly connected together. a walking computer. and so the idea of sacrifice, does it really even hold the same weight, when it is so calculated?

(it does. but he will never be able to convince himself of that fact. he's sure that ford has already figured this out, though.)