#61518

I had time today. But at first I didn’t know how to move forward. I had to make sure a central concept was clear in my mind. So I looked through my notes for a couple hours, wrote down notes to hopefully clarify it to myself more.... 

I had to start writing. That helps sometimes. Because I was watching my niece later. I wanted to end on sentence that I could take off from next time. But I just kept writing. And Jocie did her own thing so I could keep writing! And I wasn’t even hungry for lunch, so I wrote until past 2. I might have been able to write more, but I thought I should have lunch and do something with Jocie (basically watched shows... had a loonng afternoon lunch.... made her lunch... spilled on the couch... anyway). Hot outside and I was tired from being too hot last night so the time just flew. 

when writing, the words were just flowing. That’s what I want-- to be living in real time within the story, and writing along as I see the things happening. That’s the best. Other times it happens slower, and maybe it’s what built it to this point, but it’s not the best writing or the funnest.... I think. Hopefully I can move forward with writing this and it’ll make sense. 

I have an irrational fear of you getting pissed and leaving.

What?