I really thought I'd get a chance to write a longer update tonight, but I really didn't. Today was tough, but I persevered. Lunch group was extremely difficult. They added multiple things to the meal I'd brought with me, and I just couldn't eat it all. I was the last person to finish, and then the group leader had an intern stay with me while everyone left. I didn't think they would make me finish it, as they don't usually INSIST you finish 100% (it's encouraged if you're there for a restrictive ED tho). Alas, they did insist I finish, and I started crying. I was ridiculously full at this point, and I didn't really like the food left on my plate. The intern told me I could have a boost instead, which I wasn't happy about either, but I agreed to. They added stuff to my dinner as well, so I honestly expected it would go about the same way, but I surprised myself by finishing everything without needing a group leader to coax me into it. I def had to talk myself into it a few times, but I did it! I also finally saw a dietitian, and I have a thorough meal plan now. It doesn't feel doable, but I do have one. This is all the update I really have time for rn as I want to sleep, but I'll try to update more tomorrow.