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16/Nov/17

Okay sorry, sorry, sorry my bad I know I said that I'll be posting a daily blog and in the previous blog I left it incomplete sorry but I am not the only one you can blame it's my internet too. Actually lemme tell you the internet by government never go on your command Trust me never ever use the "Government net scheme " private Internet providers are far more better than this.

'So' where was I? Umm.. Oh yes so I was in 9th standard that all this happened (read my previous blog) and she now feels same for me and all that drama and Here comes the 10 standard from here the tables got turns. As I was in 10 standard she changed her school for higher studies and wait the school which I have been it's the boys campus like all the teachers their having balls. There she met her childhood friend (no name). Cause she the she left this same school earlier and now she was there again so it's obvious to have a meet-up or get-together kinds of stuff yeah it's cool although we are in the 21st century :)

She told me everything what happened in the school outside the school in parties in night stays. I knew everything about what was going in her life as if I was there at all the events. The childhood friend is now becoming a childhood best friend as we all seen these types of scenes in Indian movies same thing is happening in my life. Now this best friend was left lonely no more late night chats no more long paragraphs. Everything was changed. It's not like I never told her I told her a million times directly indirectly in every manner but that girl was not that girl anymore whom I met 7 years ago. But I was there standing alone for her yes I was. I wasn't sad at all. Days past and I was in full senses again. One night my Instagram pops up with a "hi". I still remember the time 2:56 a.m. I was half dead. I woke up read her text and instantly replied with a "Hey". Here I got slipped I should have waited I should have told her how I felt when you seenzoned me how I felt when your "best friend" told me that how you and that macho man are getting close. But No! It all started again late night talks gossips everything but now the essence the joy was not there why? I don't have the answer or do I have all the answers but don't wanna admit them. All was going fine but now we used to fight a lot. Every time in the last I said sorry even if it wasn't my mistake but hell yeah she is Girl overally. But this not happened everytime. One morning I was at my grandma's house and we started fighting like kids and then she messaged. "You want to end this friendship? Right? " And the reply was "Yes". This reply having a lot of emotions in it hidden. I never did that before like never it's not the first time she asked to end this friendship so why I said, "yes" this time? I know she doesn't mean it and she doesn't. I don't have the answers to all these questions but what I know is that I am having no regrets

Months passed I never ever tried to contact her but she did. She did for a million times she did but now the old guy who used to reply everyone who used to laugh on her lame jokes who used to hear all these daily routines again and again was gone. Somewhere too nowhere.

I know it's not a good ending but that's all happened. It's not my full heart out but clearly now I feel light. I feel like freely now.

It was a great journey with her. May God bless her.

Bye