#5a.m

How I wish, I loved the person who deserve my Love..

I tell others that they are as worthy of everything as the next person. I do this while I feel that I am not worthy of love and affection. When I am texted at 3 A.M. I try my hardest to convince them to go to sleep. I tell them it's important to their health and sleep is just wonderful. I do that while being awake at 3 A.M. and typing this at 5:34 A.M. I do my best to comfort my friends going through a heartbreak or fight. Reassuring them that they are going to be okay without that person. I do that while crying over you even after a year. I tell everyone they are beautiful inside and out. I do that while barely being able to face my own reflection in the mirror and drowning out my thoughts in fake laughter. I mean every word I say to people. You will get through this. You are worthy. You are important. You are beautiful. I do this while never believing a word of it when said to me. Why?

I need music u.u