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Good night everyone for joining me on youtube today! and thank you for following me on produce 48 I’m very glad but a bit worried that i have been found by this many people. We talked about that with my mom a bit. Now I’m going to talk about the reason I joined pd48. I wanted to reset my idol career. New young members joined akb48 and I worried about my place in the group, and so I decided to take the chance in pd48. I wanted to change everything with my own effort, so before the show I worked out, dieted and learnt korean for the sake of this project.

I have been in akb for 9 years, but I didn’t have any confidence in myself. I hated myself. But I figured I had do start liking myself if I wanted to join pd48. And I managed to do that. During the first part of the show I really wanted to make an impact, so i arranged the song myself etc. for that sake. And it was possible because of all the time I have poured into arranging and music. I challenged myself to stand on the stage and put my everything into it. And it was very fulfilling.

During the shooting we lived in the dorms and filmed and stuff. That was interesting and I didn’t worry too much … but i was very scared of watching the actual show on tv. I had to have snacks nexr to me or I couldn’t calm down. I was able to watch all 12 episodes like that. I was mostly raised by my grandfather because my mom worked a lot. Even when I was struggling in akb48 group, and couldn’t do much, he always believed in me. My grandfather’s birthday was close to the finals and I wanted to give him a present, and wanted to debut partly because of that He always watched the show excited and cheered on me. But he passed away around the second elimination so he wasn’t able to watch the finale. And the thing that supported me during those difficult times were my fans and I also believe my grandpa supported me from heaven. I’m glad to have recieved so much love, from both my fans and my grandfather in heaven. That’s what let me get this far and I’m very grateful for that. Looking back to those few months.. I had a lot of hard times but.. it was worth it and from now on I will work even harder and turn on a new leaf.

Now it’s my 14th year in entertainment industry and 10th in akb. I love singing and dancing, and I love akb48. but akb48 is the kind of group that many use to step into their bigger dreams and that’s what I always wanted to do. But after entering university i had even less time to work on music. I was a bit lost during those times and I worried about that a lot. But then i found youtube. And so even though I never got into senbatsu, I think youtube gave me a place and I’m glad I took that path and want to continue on it. And in university I have made a lot of friend and am also enjoying more normal life there. One thing i wanted to do for a long time is that I wanted to go overseas.. and I was able to be a bit selfish in akb48 and I am glad that I was given so much freedom. Thank you As I said in the beginning, akb is getting a lot of new young members and they try to rise next to senbatsu members. I’m very glad I was able to challenge myself in korea and it was very exciting to give my all and to truly live on as an idol. I don’t regret anything. I have been thinking, since the very beginning, even back when I joined the group, about graduating akb48 and how I wanted to do it. Since the beginning I had decided that I wanted to graduate after doing something big. And now I feel like this might be the timing where I have given everything.

I’m glad I was given so much freedom in akb48. and I’m very thankful for having been there and that I was able to challenge myself in the harsh enviroment of korea so now I want to announce something I have been taken care in akb for 10 years now and it has opened me a lot of possibilites but i will graduate akb48 this year. and move on to my own path

You aren’t hearing me?? I’m GRADUATING!! aaa I’m sorry. yes, I’ll graduate I feel like I have given this my all, so I feel like now is the right time. After the last stage in korea, me and my mom went to eat korean barbegue and decided together that this is the perfect time. There were a lot of times when I was unsure. But B feel like in the end I don’t have any regrets about my life as an idol I will still resurme doing music, compose and sing.. My dream has always been to me recognized internationally and I’m so glad I have been able to do that. I will continue to work hard akb48 has a lot of unique members so please continue to follow them as well! Oh, and actually, the handshake events until the end of the year, since you have bought the tickets already I will do them all. but this is the last one –> please come to see me! And as for my graduation concert.. it’s not decided yet. I decided that I wanted to graduate just a few days ago so it’s not decided yet, but please look forward to it