I cannot stress enough how important therapy has been to me. I was maybe 10 or 12, i donāt remember really when I figured something wasnāt making me feel okay. I really think I saved myself, I got help. I donāt think I should pat my own shoulder over it, but recongnizing that does help me know i can take another step in that direction.... Thinking oh it could have been so much worse wonāt do me any good.. And I canĀ“t really say that I do that too much, in that sense Iām very narcisitical I guess...The way I am doesnāt feel wrong... But sometimes putting myself on top of other things... doesnāt do that bad. I canāt say i feel bad for being that way.Ā
I do doubt myself if itās the right way to be. But who knows honestly..
I does seem kind of weird, my one therapist worked just fine. Since then, like 5 years ago, at least, until today, itās been her.Ā Ā We are doing videocalls once a week, because, yeah.. and it helps.
I once or maybe even twice wanted to stop attending, it wouldnāt have killed me I guess.. But Iām glad I still go.Ā
It makes me really sad that people do want to get better and sometimes that canāt bring themselves to go. itās life I guess.
