My partner and I made chocolate chip muffins and now I’m playing video games and watching twitch. I’m playing modded Minecraft. FoolCraft 2 specifically. I’m breeding chickens to get diamonds and trying to find an infinity cow. Modded Minecraft is just pure crazy. I love it. I’m just over here savoring a low-stress evening.

Currently, she has me working on a very very rough draft of a table of contents for a book I’d some day like to write. I’d never really gotten a solid start on it up to recently because I just didn’t feel like I had much to say. And I didn’t know where to start for that matter. Forcing myself to sit down and write chapter titles, though, I’ve realized I have a lot to say. I want to write a book about magick for those that have suffered and understand intimately the feeling of living in desperation because I think magick to us is different. I think we can use magick to help ourselves take steps forward in the terrible situations some of us face. I’m not saying that I can conquer trauma and poverty with magick. I’m saying I found magick because of those things and it’s helped keep me alive. It’s the tool that’s there when nothing else is. It’s the part of my life where I always feel capable. I want to talk about all of that. And I want to talk about the potential pitfalls in the current magic communities for us desperate bunch. And I want to talk about the strength of people that live a life where they fight against something every day. And I want to talk about magick because I fucking love it.

I’ve also been looking into astrology lately, mostly because it’s never interested me very much and I’ve always dismissed it, but I feel like if I understand the whole system a bit better maybe I won’t be so quick to call all of it bullshit. Just the newspaper horoscopes. They’re always solidly bullshit. A friend recommended astro.com to get started and a few books.

I got The Dead and The Master in my cards, so I decided today to make jelly from frost grapes picked from my home town. I’d watched my grandmother make grape jelly when I was a kid, but I’d never actually done it myself. At the end of the day, I had a whole quart of jelly, enough leftover juice to make syrup for a french toast dinner, and completely purple hands and counters. I’m counting that as a win. If that fucking jelly doesn’t set up I’m gonna cry. I don’t know why I’m so worried though, I’ve made jam before and never had a problem. I’ve already agreed to make another batch or 3 actually. And I’ve agreed to make some wild plum jelly and syrup too. It might be a very busy week for me. 

My local witchcraft related group met up today to do some divination and my makeshift Servants deck did some work. I was a little worried that it would be hard to read them for others, but it was as clear as ever. I also got to have a really long discussion about numbers and their meanings and different styles of reading. I also got to see someone do a reading with a system they made from scratch for themselves and it was so inspiring. I was fascinated and I really want to take a shot at making my own divination system. Especially since I’ve seen so many people doing exactly that and being very successful. I’m definitely a big fan of using The Servants as an oracle deck, for instance. I think Tommie Kelly did an astounding job at making a system. I’ve kinda stuck to tarot and things very similar, or at the very least made by others. Everything else I do is kinda hodge-podge and of my own making (typically) so it seems like a good time to do that with divination.

My offering is this: a public, whole hearted thank you to The Chaste. Thank you for reinforcing feelings of dedication, discipline, and confidence. Thank you for paving the way for the first few crucial steps on a much longer journey.

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When this month is up I think I might apply the same strategy and do a standard deck tarot reading each day and track it too. Especially since I have a deck I want to get more used to working with. I occasionally like to tackle my magick as a science experiment or data collection because it gives me direction when I want to tweak something. Right now I’m tracking servants so I can better understand when each of them works best. But also for the insight into what is and is not appearing as I mentioned earlier. I also want to check at the end of the month to see if certain Servants are appearing more frequently together. It could be an indication of how they’ll best work for me, or maybe just an indication of who they play best with.