#3.10.22

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alle 24 h

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ohne anstoß...

i went out on the town last night originally to meet up with someone, which ended up being a dub.🙄 but then, being the magician i am, i decided to turn the night around. so i stayed and enjoyed myself, then went for a cute stroll that landed me at an amazing kava brewery. i’m talking straight out of a fairytale! treated myself to some super delicious kratom (probably the best kratom drink i’ve had in my life), and just enjoyed my own company. a short while later, a gentleman approached me and struck up a convo. baby girl has been a magnet as of late lol, so this wasn’t surprising and was much welcomed. as he began to speak to me i realized this was gonna be one of those conversations where no matter what happens afterwards, you never forget it. we ended up speaking for HOURS. nearly stayed until closing. very much reminiscent of “meet-cute” style movies haha.

the impactful part: during that conversation he said some things to me that were very affirming. little did he know, he was letting me in on the fact that i was actually on the right path. as i’ve mentioned before, i’m on my own version of a level up journey. or i should say, i’m in a different, revamped phase of it. simply meaning i’ve become more serious about stepping into my excellence as a woman. in EVERY way. and hearing this man speak on just about everything i’ve been working on internally (without me uttering a word of it to him), confirmed that the work is workinggg. some things he said he noticed and loved were the way i carried myself, and my values/morals. he could see that there was strong conviction within me. that i’ve learned from the lessons of the past (i vaguely touched on some life stories, as he did too). basically summed up that i’m sweet, but a “take no shit” kind of person. apparently he was blown away by my groundedness and thought processes, and felt i was a “unicorn” lmao. comments like that from men i always take with a grain of salt by the way, especially the unicorn bit. not because i don’t believe in my own intelligence and rarity, i most definitely do. but because i’m not an “i’m not like other girls” kinda woman, will never dare to be, because all women are so incredibly valuable. also i’m privy to the fact that most men know how to appeal to us via sweet words. however, this one, seemed more genuine. i even ended up briefly mentioning my “engagement”, or recommitment to myself, and the boundaries that come with that, and that had him shook too lol. side note: this man is a fellow creative (professional dj, among other things), as well as a lawyer within the music industry. so he definitely piqued my interest as conversation flowed. not running away with dreams of anything. simply observing.