#24.9

the ones you thought might be the same (it's good to be wrong)

wondering if this is someone else's way to say "I see you" before leaving without a trace—thinking it would be fine if it was

last night i noticed the skin around the rashes was starting to look a little blue. it got even more obvious by this morning and by tonight it had turned into full-on bruises (they hurt to the touch like regular bruises too). they spread out quite a bit, and the 'dots' on the rashes (they're not really pimple, don't look like bug bites either) look redder now. showed my mother and she said her psoriasis has never looked like that. probably will be 6 months before i can actually see a dermatologist or something, who knows if there's even gonna be something to show by that time (i hope not). tried looking up bruises with psoriasis, first few results in were already talking about leukemia, so not going there, not doing that lol.

don't make yourself sick

I love all of it that is hidden away in the little attic of my brain, right there, only a door—only a dream away