#24.12.2016

The grinch song is the best diss track of all time don’t even try to disagree

i had surprisingly nice and stress-free christmas eve

I don't like bedrooms. Cuddle toys, posters, bed. They all remind me of where a friend touched me. I don't like living rooms. TV, couch and beer in a hand. They all remind me of how an uncle's hands touched me. I don't like kitchens. Cooker, pots and the scent of food. They all remind me of a mother shouting at me. I don't like bathrooms. Washing basin, bathtub and tiled floor. They all remind me of a younger me that locked herself away to cry, to hurt herself, to panic, to scream and to sit in silence. I don't like closed doors when in the room with someone else because I know what they could, should and will do to me. I don't like open doors when alone because I don't know who will come and what they would, could and will do to me. Because I'm cute. Because I'm gorgeous. Because I'm silent. Because I'm a good girl. What is done to me is because I wanted it, because I let it happen, because I didn't tell. I'm loneliness. I'm friendship. I'm hands. I'm kisses. Hello, my is... And I'm not who I was before.