#23andlost

A little respect for me y la persona en la que me convertido. 

I don't know what I want in life. It's been like this for the last 5+ years. It's fucked me out of a lot, from my own restaurant to my last bf and gf. Seems I can't decide where I want to go, what I want to be, who I want to become, when I want to do it, or even why?!... I'm an amazing cook, but I absolutely hate being in a kitchen cooking the same shit every day even tho my customers love it , I'm quite the business man, EVERYONE SEES IT except my Boss/Father. To him, if I'm not working 65+ hrs a week- I didn't work enough to to show him it's time for him to retire and let me take over and show the world what I can do, but I'm not working enough for him to prove so. I sit here with no motivation, no drive, no want, no care for anything. I've been contemplating moving away and starting fresh. But my resume only says I've worked for my father for the last 8 years. No college after high school. I only get replies from restaraunts that want me to cook for them, but I just can't do the kitchen any longer. I'm at the brink of giving life up... Not suicidal but my soul is lost.... Please help me...