#23.10.2018

I slept about 5h before waking up on a dream. I was back in my old home in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by dark forest like it really was, and outside with me was mom and our dog (who is long ago passed away). In my dreams, where I’m back at old home, there’s ALWAYS dark outside. Always dark autumn night and always something bad is either going to happen or is happening! I don’t remember having even ONE dream when / where it would had been bright outside or one HAPPY dream about the place. As I stood on the yard looking at the direction of near by forest - which always did creep me out - I noticed a light there. Our dog suddenly ran there but he didn’t bark or anything. Instead he went near the light but since I didn’t know what it was I called him back. He looked at me but returned. Now I saw this light better and it was kind of big wooden lantern with glassy sides. It had warm and bright light in it, kind of yellow-orange mix. I also noticed one black cross on one of the glass sides. It just floated there since there was none to carry it, but still, at times, it disappeared into the darkness. I remember cursing it at mom how full moon was behind the clouds so I couldn’t use its light to see what there really was. I even looked at the moon above me and yes, it was behind the clouds. I woke up but realized that the dream was still going so I had to wake myself better, fully awake which means getting out of the bed and do something.