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出社で家出るのが7時、帰宅が20時だとして、7時間の睡眠を確保すると1日残り4時間。その中で買い物料理食事掃除洗濯して、有酸素運動と筋トレとストレッチ、湯船に浸かった後はスキンケア、さらに自己啓発のお勉強。無理じゃない？『一般的なOL』みんな時空歪んでんの？

You read all this stuff about love; the joy, the sacrifice, the risk, the heartbreak and the walls, but you don’t see anything about the suffocation that comes with loving too much. About the fear that grows inside you when something drops and you feel this eternal space that is so thirsty for love and like a black hole it takes in so much yet never feels like enough. And you already know that this is unhealthy, and from previous life lessons you instantly occupy yourself with work and study and hobbies and cleaning, anything to take your mind off this smothering feeling. And you also know from past experience that this feeling will only be okay, only acceptable when in marriage, when God has blessed you and made it all permissible. And then obviously as part of all the wonderful ways this world works that can’t happen any time soon, you have to wait. I don’t know how people do it. I don’t know how people stay in relationships for years and years and feel fulfilled? Maybe you’re the only crazy one out here. Normal people probably feel satisfied seeing their partner for a few hours a week and can probably keep on doing that for as long as fate allows.