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Yes, we have gone our separate ways. Even though we agreed to duplicate our child so there are no future problems, it still feels awkward to each have her... I almost decided to go against our agreement and let her go, But a close friend made a few good points to me:

Archived history of being chosen as a parent, for a reason.

The updated birth certificate from the courthouse posted.

The tagged archive of all that has been shared; teething, first word, first experiences, happy adventures, butterflies, DoDo, firefly tree, the color red, her first hanbok, the baby scarf sling, many first holidays, animal bento boxes, the park, new foods, crawling, and all the little gifts.

And most importantly; How you felt when you became a dad. Holding her for the first time, feeding her for the first time. How your whole world changed in one day. She needed a dad and you had a place in your heart. “You are her father, do not be ashamed to continue that.”

So ...Alicia stays, as well as all the memories in her tag. I don't hate anyone. No one I know of hates you either firefly. You’ve done nothing wrong. I know I always try too hard to make things work between people when people just need to move on. Stubbornness and hope is hard to remove from my personalty. I will not apologize for trying my best.

who has shown me, what love really is.

who is the reason for my happy days and the comfort in my sad ones….

who cheers my successes and comfort me in my failures.

I am so proud to be your fiance, so proud to be able to call myself your wife soon…

I LOVE YOU~

Aigoo yeobo-- It’s you who have proven to me that solid love between just two people can really happen. I can always depend on you. In return, I’ll always be your rock firefly~ I’m proud you chose me. -puffs his chest-

but my heart seemed to knew it from the very first start that you are the one Dongho, that you are special and unique, wonderful, caring and funny not to forget mature and wise. I wanted you so much, craved you so much and you were so forbidden for me…. like i somehow were forbidden for you…. and it made me crazy, so so crazy and i couldn’t get you out of my mind…

now when i think about it, it’s funny and i can laugh, thinking back about it with a bright smile, because this is our story tho. and thankfully you aren’t my forbidden fruit anymore -chuckles-

i would choose you over and over again, even tho if it means i would have to be kicked out from heaven like Eve, after she tried the forbidden fruit.

because who needs a fake heaven … when you are my entire heaven Justin? 

and you were worth the risk. Aish… after my last break up i had sworn to myself that i would never ever ever fall in love again, and then you appeared. you plan ruiner you! -laughs- i hope you will carry the responsibility forever !

because i want to spend the forever with you my love, and i am so proud to be your fiance, so incredible that you are the man that i will marry soon! my future hubby~

I love you! I love you ! i love you !

and from day to day more~! and today…

it’s already our 6th!! months anniversary!! six month! time flew!! and in a little while you are going to be a father again~ adding our little love creation to our little Ali, making her a big sister! this is so exciting~

we already are a family , you will be a wonderful hubby, like you are a wonderful wonderful father

there are so much things i wanna say, but right now i am so overwhelmed… because it’s our day, ours!

and well some things i should tell you in private, like how sexy i find you and where and what exactly and how tasty your skin is~~ nhh~….uh…errrhm well yeah i better stop that now -coughs-

anyway, Justin…

I went to sleep last night with a smile because i would be dreaming of you…..

but i woke up this morning with a smile because you weren’t a dream!

It feels so wonderful to be back in your arms, please hold me longer nae? i don’t wanna be apart from you -whispers- never!

i am yours~ only yours! you are my Happiness! 

Saranghaeyo <3<3

can’t wait to see you later~ <3