#2017diary

               There’s a lot of ups and downs, mixed emotions, heartbreak, realization, regrets, and blessings came into my life.

               Ups and downs in my life were not easy. Challenges came through and leave with lessons. One of it was losing a member of family and the trust from other friends. Although that happened, there’s still a smile in my face and accept what happened.

               Mixed emotions. 2017 made me happy, sad, broke, crazy, etc. I can’t say that 2017 is the worst year just because I experienced and felt bad there are still positive vibes happened to me. I’m so happy because my real friends remain last year and made me feel so special. Every minute with my friends is so crazy; I love it how we spent our time to each other. There may be a circle of friend that died and made me sad but I’m still thankful for them because I learned a lot of things to them. It is also made me sad knowing that your other friends that you “trust” is hiding something to you. I felt so outcast and not important them. There’s a lot of issues in our circle but we fixed it since we’re the only who got each other backs.

               I experienced this heartbreak once again! Is it because of boy bands??? Hmmm, yeah sort of. But the real reason of my heartbreak is giving my heart to someone. Omg nakaka-tense tong part na to lmao. I feel bad about this because I didn’t take care of my heart again huhu. Ayun, I fell in love ulit. As expected, I was hurt. YAS PAST TENSE NA! huehue. Everything was so fast and it seems that I was sabik in this kind of feeling which is wrong. Well, I’m still thankful because a I realized and learned a lot of thing.

REALIZATION:

I realized that I should be waiting for the right person to come in my life.

I must give my trust to a person who is trust-worthy.

Impure

Be happy and contended to what you have.

Don’t look for someone who wasn’t there.

Settle to the type of people who make you happy.

Forget and learn from the past.

REGRETS:

Gave that ‘first’ to someone.

Falling in love in a wrong time.

Wasting time fighting to a fool.

Not following my parents.

Trusting other people who you shouldn’t trust.

Loving a person who doesn’t deserved it.

               2017 is a year full of BLESSINGS. I am so thankful to everyone who surrounds me and love/loved me. Throughout the year, I feel so loved, happy, and important. As I turned 18, I should be more careful to my decisions and be more matured in life. Without God in my heart, my life will be miserable. Thank you God for guiding me and so extra special! Thank you for giving me my parents who is always there and support me, friends and best of friends! Sorry for hating someone and for the words I shouldn’t let go. I’ll think twice from now on be more smart in my words.

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