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Lanif (Guerriero umano di Valentina), in qualunque momento libero.

I didn't really have the chance to talk with my friends because they spent the whole night dancing and i don't like dancing. I didn't even like the music tonight. 

The few times i actually said something they didn't hear me.

Number of drunk middle-aged men about to fall on me and who luckily managed to stay on their feet despite even their nails were drunk: 3 (be surprised because i'm like a magnet for drunk people and perv grandpas so 3 is low)

One broken zip of my purse. Imagine my face in that moment.

A shirt borrowed from my mom for nothing.

I looked for my iPod at some point, just to find out this was the very one night i forgot it home.

Number of topics and worries that crossed my mind and refused to leave because i had nothing else to chase them away with: cannot process

But my friend payed my dinner to make me forgive her for not attending my birthday party.

My mind's update at the current time is this if you're interested:

idk

five people experienced what my mom has to go through and they're all sure it's gonna be fine

five is SS501 so it must mean something

that one isn't a date

i don't want it to be a date

i want Saengie ah

Saengie ah is seriously my soulmate. I can't waste my time in non-dates

i hate men

correction: i hate real men

correction of the correction: i hate real men who live relatively near me

i need to write that book

i'm not gonna let my mom move a finger just in case anyway

and if my brother keeps being an ignorant asshole i'll slap him hard because these days everyone makes me want to slap them hard and he just happens to be here

yes dad i'm going to bed

thank God

Anyway. My friends had fun at least so i tried to stay on my own not to ruin their night and they didn't seem upset so i think i did well. It's just that i would have used a distraction tonight.

You know, it sucks that my bday was so great and only a week later everything's collapsing. It's like it waited for my bday to be gone but thank you very much, how about waiting for Xmas? Or maybe the day i move to Mars?