#200ep

there's one thing the 200th ep and its celebration reminded me and it's that, even if I don't always realize it or like it, supernatural is still the armour I sometimes wear to fight real life yes, it gives me so much to be sad about, and disappointed and angry but I can't ignore all the good things it brought into my life I love Dean and Sam and Castiel, I love the road trips, the classic rock, the lore, saving people one town at the time, never feeling homeless. fanfictions save my bad days and then there's artworks and anyalisis and you guys and all those things I hate about the show and about the fandom (can't help but mention what happened and still isn't resolved at Chicon this year), they matter, but how I feel about the essence of this show, what it gave me, what those two brothers without a childhood taught me, transcends them, it's immutable and eternal and at this point, it won't change, not matter what happens.

ACTUALY TEARS I CAN BARELY TYPE OH MY GOD I AM SHAKING