John Laurens x Alexander Hamilton Words: 2,149 This was going to be my first fic for the Hamwriters Write-a-Thon but i came up with a better idea, meaning i can post this now!

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A kiss under the fireworks at Disneyland was all John and Alexander could wish for.  Unfortunately, life got in the way.

Five years into their relationship and stuck with two children… well not stuck, exactly. John and Alexander had begged their friend Eliza to be a surrogate for the two children, as they figured it would fill the emptiness of their house. However, Eliza was busy with her engagement to her girlfriend, Maria Reynolds, when they had first asked.

John remembered standing outside of Eliza’s house and getting down on one knee, begging for her help. He remembered tugging on her arm and whining, letting all the words inside his brain loose as he tried to convince her. He never had been good at persuading, or talking in general, that was Alexander’s thing.

After many days of John’s incessant pleading, Eliza finally agreed. Nine months later, the Hamilton-Laurens family was blessed with a little girl: Charlotte.

Her face splattered with freckles, much like John’s, and her eyes were a rich mocha colour. Alexander often pretended that they came from his side of the genes. John often had to remind him that that was impossible, to which Alexander remarked:

“Nothing is impossible John, and I should know. I managed to get with the most beautiful man on the planet.”

John’s cheeks would always redden at that statement.

But as the two men soon realised, raising a child was expensive. Things like school, clothes and recreational activities sucked their bank accounts dry. Their beloved dream of the kiss at Disney postponed itself, along with several other dreams that were pushed out of their heads by the loud crying of their newborn baby.

It was Charlotte’s first day of school that brought the two men back to their previously empty state.

“John, I think I have an idea… you feel the emptiness as well, right?”

“I feel like my only child has left us forever. Today, she starts school. Tomorrow, she’s smoking drugs and dancing for money… oh god what have we done?”

“Woah! Our child will not be participating in drugs, or dancing for small amounts of money. If we raised her correctly, and I’m sure we did-“

“You dropped her as a baby.”

“Then we’ll be absolutely fine. Besides, it was only a second on the floor… plus no one saw it, so that counts for something right?”

John shook his head in amusement, getting back into the car. “No, it does not count for anything. But, I think we’ve gone off track. Can you fill me in on this idea?” He asked, resting his head against the steering wheel, jumping when the horn went off.

Alexander snickered. “And you call me the bad parent,” He muttered, climbing in the car and leaning back in the passenger seat. “Don’t give me an answer yet, just… think about it?”

John nodded, turning to Alexander and taking his hands.

“So I was thinking, maybe now that Charlotte will be at school and I’ll be at work, you might start to feel a little lonely around the house. Maybe we could let someone new join our family?” Alexander suggested.

“We’re finally getting a dog?” John asked excitedly. Alex chuckled, shaking his head.

“No, I meant let’s have another baby,” He replied, squeezing John’s hand. “Can you imagine it? I would bring Charlotte home and you would be sitting in the new baby’s room, feeding him or her while you rub your eyes…”

“I don’t exactly want to go through the whole child thing again Alexander. I lost so much sleep, we lost so much money, and we lost Disney. Do you remember the first time we planned that trip? I had the perfect proposal planned… but suddenly you lost sight of that and you got caught up in this whole children thing. You said that children would fill the holes in our lives, make us happy… but I just feel lost,” John said, letting out a soft sigh at the end. “It’s not that I don’t love Charlotte, it’s just… I have so many other things I want to achieve before I find myself with another child in my arms.”

The smile on Alexander’s face fell. He dropped John’s hands, looking down at his feet. “I understand,” He mumbled, glancing out the window with a longing in his heart.

As the weeks went by, John slowly saw less and less of Alexander. His head would poke out of his office every now and then, demanding food or water. Sometimes, Alexander would stay at work until the early hours of the morning.

John would try his best to try and distract Charlotte from his strange behaviours, but he never had been good with children. His feeble attempts did nothing to take his child’s mind off her missing father.

John had been cooking dinner when the questions began. Charlotte, who was usually playing with her toys most of the time, had made her way to the kitchen and managed to seat herself on one of the stools. “Daddy, where’s Papa?” She asked softly, fiddling with her sleeves as she glanced up at her father.

John thought for a moment. He couldn’t tell her the truth, for he didn’t know that himself. So John decided to use the most realistic lie he could come up with.

“He’s buying you a present to celebrate your second month of school. But you can’t tell him I told you, okay? You have to act surprised when we give it to you.”

A wide smile spread on Charlotte’s face. She seemed to believe the lies that spilled from his lips, that was good enough for John. He knew now he would have to buy her a present, which didn’t help their financial situation greatly, but he would do anything for that girl.

“That’s exciting Daddy! When will he be home?” Charlotte asked, her eyes wide with excitement.

“Soon, princess. I promise he’ll be home soon.”

But soon took its time to arrive. Soon turned into days, and then into weeks. Finally, on the anniversary of Alexander’s disappearance, the door swung open and in walked John’s long lost husband.

John didn’t know what to do when their eyes met. He wanted to embrace Alexander, and he wanted to press their lips together and feel the fiery love they held together. The other half of John wanted to punch him in the jaw and lock him out of the house. But John couldn’t make a decision, and so he stood in the kitchen, frozen.

Alexander gulped, taking off his bag and hanging it on the coat stand. “We need to talk,” He said, taking a seat on the couch closest to the door. He was ready to run again at any given moment.

“I agree. You missed a lot considering that you left for a month,” John said, biting down hard on his lip. He had no idea what to say to the man in front of him. The one thing he knew was, this was not the same person he fell in love with.

John took a seat on the couch opposite to Alexander and fiddled with the hem of his shirt absentmindedly. The two sat in silence for a moment, until Alexander decided to clear his throat.

“John, I’ve been keeping a big secret from you, and I need to let it out. Do you remember the day I asked you about a second child?”

A nod.

“Well, I wasn’t in the right mind that day. I made a terrible decision and I know the outcome of it is going to hurt you and Eliza…”

John raised his eyebrow. What did Eliza have to do with this?

Alexander paused, taking a long and deep breath. “We have another baby on the way… but this one was an accident. I… I had sex with Eliza’s wife.”

In life, we often have moments when the world around us falls apart. For John, this was his moment. He felt tears running down his cheek as he tried to figure out what to say. He never was good with words. That was Alexander’s thing…

But now, as John found himself alone in the world again, he realised he would have to learn.

“I’d like it if you left. Please make sure you take all of your things, and don’t speak to Charlotte. I will explain this to her at a later date. I’m sure you can stay with Gilbert until you’re back on your feet.”

Alexander’s mouth opened for a second, but then it shut again. For the first time in a long time, the man was without words. So in the silence of the situation, he stood and picked up his bag, leaving the house with a slam of the front door.

That was when John realised he was truly alone.

Two years had passed since John and Alexander’s split. John had decided that for Charlotte’s seventh birthday, he would do what him and Alexander had never managed to do. He would take her to Disneyland.

Unfortunately, John would not be able to propose as the fireworks shot into the sky, but he could spend the day with his princess.

If there was one thing John learnt from Alexander, it was that fairytales are make believe. Nothing that comes out of them is true or realistic. Their love was like a fairytale… it was fake, and broken behind the scenes. None of the Disney writers had perfect lives. That’s why Disney movies are filled with so many villains.

As they walked through the gate, a wide smile spread on John’s face. He had finally made it. He could cross something off his bucket list. He squeezed Charlotte’s hand, walking further into the park.

“So what do you want to do first princess?” John asked, looking down at his daughter whose face carried a massive grin.

“The teacups Daddy!” Charlotte exclaimed, smiling her toothless smile. That made John smile too.

The two made their way to the iconic ride, waiting in line for what seemed like forever in the summer’s heat. When they were finally let inside, John frowned slightly as he saw no spare seats. He looked around, smirking when he spotted the final empty cup. He picked Charlotte up, carrying her to it but freezing when he realised another family had the same idea.

A man and his small child climbed into the cup before John could even protest. John sighed, knowing the only thing he could do was join the stranger. He wasn’t very good at socialising… that was Alexander’s…

That was Alexander.

John cautiously stepped forward, clearing his throat. “Uh, hey stranger. Mind if we join you?” He asked softly, putting his hand on the edge of the cup.

Alexander looked up, and for a moment, his eyes filled with fear. He nodded slowly, opening the door of the cup and allowing John and Charlotte to slide in next to them.

The park was filled with cheery music, but the only thing that John could hear was the deafening silence between the two of them. He sighed, deciding to make the first move. “It’s been a while.”

“It has.”

“How have you been?”

“...good.”

Charlotte sighed. “Daddy, be nice to Papa. I miss him. Maybe if you’re nice, he’ll come back,” She huffed, crossing her arms.

Both men softened their gazes, turning to each other. John felt like he had fallen in love all over again. He had promised himself that he would never fall for Alexander again, but once their eyes met, he was helpless.

“I missed you. A lot. The house wasn’t the same without you,” John whispered, placing his hand on top of Alexander’s.

“T-This is John. Well, John Junior. I call him JJ for short,” Alexander mumbled, patting the head of the three year old beside him.

“Why would you name him John?” John asked in confusion.  “I thought I meant nothing to you.”

“Well, you deleted all the pictures of us from social media, so I had nothing to remind me that you were once mine. I named him John so I could remember how horrible I had been to you… so that I could realise that I was the one at fault. But... even though he’s not our child, I wanted to honour you. Because I know for a fact, you’re a better father, and person, than I’ll ever be.”

A few tears managed to make their way out of John’s eyes. He wiped them quickly as a small smile creeped onto his face.

“M-Maybe we could spend the rest of the day with each other? A-As a family?”

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