I'm so lost, so unbelievably lost. And I feel I'm at my worst at this moment. I have no idea what I should do with my life, I can't seem to get ahold of it! Everyone seems to want something so bad in life, and I just want it to end. I've given up on searching/quit searching for love, cause no matter what I do, it never works. If I believed in this shit I'd have thought that I'm cursed by the gods above. But I don't. I don't know how to be at peace, cause whenever I think about it, I can only see two scenarios, 1- me being loved, and in love with the same person, being financially and mentally stable, my family living their best life, living in another country, having another body and face, and other unachievable things. 2- me being dead. And it's pretty obvious what's easiest and more achievable. So yeah. I'm just beyond tired. Please end this, whoever you are. Please!