Meditations

Date: 18 June 2026

1 Duration: 30 minutes at 2:43 PM

2 Duration: 12 minutes at 10:58 PM

Depth:

I may have spent just a few seconds right at the beginning of the afternoon session viewing the spiritual eye. But it didn’t feel like my attention was in the stillness that is required to view the third eye.

Yesterday’s afternoon session may have been the kind that begins with a glimpse into another depth of concentration and then quickly settles into the irreversible best depth that I am capable of.

Date: 17 June 2026

1 Duration: 46 minutes at 1:35 PM

2 Duration: 15 minutes at 11:12 PM

Depth:

Both these sessions lacked the depth of the ultra quiet sublayer of the deep sleeping mind. Since I have got a taste of the image-free, motionless sublayer, I missed it during yesterday’s sessions. However, I didn’t miss the depths of the sublayers that are relatively shallow compared to the ultra-quiet zone.

The relatively shallow sublayers have considerable depth of mind to them. There are lifetronic images here that I am yet to outgrow. There are ever changing ‘peculiar “knocking” sounds’ that are on their way to evolve and guide my sessions further. There is the occasional upward jerk to my head due to life energies trying to stream straight out of my head, in line with my straightened spine.

Date: 15 June 2026

1 Duration: 37 minutes at 2:55 PM

2 Duration: 27 minutes at 12:06 AM (16 June)

Depth:

These two sessions lacked that ultra quiet space in my mind that I have been experiencing in many of my sessions recently. In the hours that followed the afternoon session, I felt sure that it was the nap before the session that kept my attention from entering the deeply quiet mind-spaces.

I wasn’t so sure after the late night bedtime session. By the late night session, I was sure that I was entering the session with the right amount of fatigue. My attention fatigued due being awake for many hours is reason enough to for it to launch into the depths where my attention gets the rest it deserves.

It seems like I am in the meditational phase of my decades long practice in which my attention has to learn to make the ultra-quiet and irreversible part of its advancement into my deep sleeping mind. May I keep up practice patiently. Although I write this piece in the morning hours of 17 June 2026, the midnight hour of 15th June is the last that I have meditated.

Date: 14 June 2026

1 Duration: 29 minutes at 11:54 AM

2 Duration: 25 minutes at 11:11 PM

Depth:

These two sessions were wonderfully quiet. I had opportunity to experience the quiet of the newly found sublayer within my deep sleeping mind.

It is quiet in the new sublayer of the deep mind because the sublayer is relatively more motionless than the sublayer before it. There is no imagery to deal with in the latest sublayer.

Date: 13 June 2026

1 Duration: 38 minutes at 1:49 PM

2 Duration: 20 minutes at 11:43 PM

Depth:

Inner peace seems to have undone nearly all my restlessness! Not only were these two sessions devoid of thoughts but also after the session I looked for discomfort that is commonly associated with generated credit card bills. I couldn’t find associated discomfort.

I know how deep the association has been. After yesterday’s afternoon session, when I tried remembering the discomfort that I am long familiar with, all I felt was a staleness. The discomfort with due-to-be-paid by dates seemed like a stale, considerably faded discomfort!

Do I not operate in survival mode anymore? Like, not at all? That is so unlike me! Am I not me anymore?

Freed life energy had turned into an upward moving stream during meditation between March of 2020 and the very end of year 2022. Then, the stream breached my head. I have known life energy as inner peace ever since.

Since the last days of year 2022 and now (June, 2026) inner peace has helped my attention advance into my deep sleeping mind. Inner peace continues to guide my attention into greater motionlessness with the help of ‘peculiar “knocking” sounds’ as and when inner peace chooses to guide through sound.

Inner peace’s attraction to the deep sleeping mind makes sense. The motionlessness of the deep sleeping mind makes it suitable for the meditator to hear the silences of inner peace. There are entire series of images that aren’t getting formed simply because I have made the conscious effort to avoid lifetronic images.

Date: 12 June 2026

1 Duration: 24 minutes at 10:31 AM

2 Duration: 24 minutes at 1:59 PM

3 Duration: 21 minutes at 11:09 PM

Depth:

There has been an advance within the deep sleeping mind. My attention has meditated in the clear waters of inner peace in all of these 3 sessions. It is almost as if my attention has been given access to yet another motionless sublayer of the deep sleeping mind.

The newly discovered sublayer is so motionless in nature that it undoes the existence of lifetronic imagery. It is wonderful to be face to face with inner peace without any intermediary imagery. Just a few sessions back, I had written about the deep sleeping mind as a proportionate receptacle for inner peace.

Date: 11 June 2026

Duration: 44 minutes at 2:30 PM

Depth:

The sessions for the last two afternoons have been peculiar. I am going to attempt explaining them with a visual analogy. Every once in a while there are fixed camera shots in movies. The main character or main location is held fixed and unmoving while everything around the main object moves rather rapidly through time.

I am pretty sure that if I looked for a gif for such movie shots, I’ll find one. Many times shots like that convey the main character not moving with time. The last two afternoon sessions have been exactly like such movie shots.

My attention has got fixed at the point between the eyebrows with just enough movement to follow inhalations and exhalations. The passage of time in every piece of imagery leaves my attention untouched.

To have my attention fixed at the spot that allows only for it to follow the breath is wonderful. Time stops. The Wikipedia page for Patanjali’s ’Ashtanga (eight limbs of yoga)’, has ‘Dhayna’ as the 7th limb. Here is a copied line from Wikipedia:

‘Dhyana is uninterrupted train of thought, current of cognition, flow of awareness.’

Date: 10 June 2026

1 Duration: 39 minutes at 2:22 PM

2 Duration: 24 minutes at 10:34 PM

Depth:

Yesterday’s afternoon session was unusual. Inner peace was liquid again. A few posts back, I have written about inner peace feeling firm.

The fluid or firm texture is granted by the mind-space I happen to be in. Yesterday, life energy as inner peace chose to clean up some more the shallow surface of my waking consciousness.

On the meditation path, the very beginnings of calmness takes away conscious waking control of one’s attention. One hopes and prays for attention to follow feelings of calm from the moment one learns to let go of direct waking control over one’s attention.

Calmness results in freeing up of life energies. The best I have done for the last 6 years in 2 months is to have my attention hook itself to the freed force during my meditation sessions.

Life energy as inner peace chose to clean up my waking consciousness yesterday. I consider myself hugely blessed to be able to follow life energy as inner peace during my meditation sessions.

If my waking mind requires to be prepared for the next steps into my deep sleeping mind, then may I be able to exercise the will to sit for meditation. To observe the blessed force work on my mind is a pleasure by itself.

Date: 9 June 2026

Duration: 43 minutes at 2:01 PM

Depth:

Yesterday’s only session is typically what I have been referring to as ‘maintenance session’ for many years. These are sessions when one can’t see any progress. One can’t detect any regress either. Sessions like these aren’t exactly filler sessions either.

My physical self isn’t a deterrent to such sessions. Yet, it seems like I went only as far as an older depth of mind. I am familiar with the depth of mind I spend such sessions in. They distinctly lack the glimpse of the new depth that I have been shown recently.

These are sessions that seem like a step backwards but they are not. There is a subtle strengthening of the attention muscle through such sessions. Without the strengthening, the next steps into inward progress isn’t possible.

Date: 8 June 2026

1 Duration: 43 minutes at 2:54 PM

2 Duration: 8 minutes at 10:50 PM

Depth:

My physical self wasn’t doing too well yesterday. Since I have been blaming it all on the inevitable hormonal changes, I accepted the possibility of not making any progress in meditation. All freed life energies tend to physical imbalances before they help further attention’s progress into the depths of the meditator’s mind. I know this from experience.

I sat for meditation twice yesterday, knowing full well that my attention won’t get to the depths I desire. Between the afternoon session and the bedtime session, my physical state had worsened. Physical imbalances had grown. That explains the short duration of 8 minutes for the bedtime session. I am glad that I was able to exercise my will power to sit up despite my hormones dictating otherwise.

The afternoon session revealed that my attention is able to meditate even when my physical self is demanding attention. That’s the power of the deep sleeping mind. It is motionless by nature. When the attention is blessed with the meditational advancement into the deep sleeping mind, it is possible to have the attention seated in such motionlessness.

Date: 7 June 2026

1 Duration: 44 minutes at 1:09 PM

2 Duration: 33 minutes at 10:38 PM

Depth:

The afternoon session didn’t have unidirectional life energies in the head like it had had in the afternoon before it. There was rest of mind equal to 44 minutes simply because of the depth of the session.

My attention spent most of those 44 minutes in the quiet of the deep sleeping mind. Through a variety of lifetronic images, life energy contributes to the advanced meditator’s collection of inner peace. In the deep sleeping mind, inner peace is fortified with deep-sleep’s silence.

The deep sleeping mind’s nature is most suitable to hold and not scatter any amounts of inner peace. Up until my attention was granted access to my deep sleeping mind, I experienced and spoke of inner peace as a cleansing, purifying, concentrating and refreshing liquid. Inner peace is fluid.

With a seat provided by the motionless nature of my deep sleeping mind, my attention is now making it possible to collect inner peace. The thick layer of collected inner peace is giving it its firmness. I can’t even imagine fully how a day of activity will be like if the activities weren’t able to thin my peace.

Date: 6 June 2026

1 Duration: 38 minutes at 2:13 PM

2 Duration: 11 minutes at 11:05 PM

Depth:

A few days back I had written about getting goosebumps on my scalp while meditating. Yesterday’s afternoon session had a much larger part of my scalp with goosebumps and it lasted much longer than the older session.

The goosebumps kept coming through the 38 minutes session and it was mostly around the top and the scalp above the ears. In the two sessions that I have experienced such goosebumps on my scalp, I have remembered words written by Swami Vivekananda in his book Raja Yoga (1896).

Unfortunately, I am unable to find the quote right now. However, it had to do with all energies of the mind pointing in the same direction. Those goosebumps on the scalp felt like that. It felt as if all the energies that I had freed up were now flowing in one direction.

The direction was given by the stream of life energy rising up the spine, into the head and now above the head, while touching the scalp around the temples too. It is possible that occasionally life energies are overflowing from my head now.

When life energies are not overflowing and are getting collected at a spot within my head, my attention has the task of avoiding lifetronic imagery. It is likely the goosebumps are a sign of an overflow. Again, an overflow doesn’t quite further my meditational growth.

May I remain patient while awaiting the blessing of even greater motionlessness of my deep sleeping mind. My attention really needs to be stilled to the point of not being disturbed by my breathing. With attention so fixed and fixed at the point between my eyebrows will I find further meditational advancement.

It has taken me 6 years and 2 months since my first spinal vibration to have my head overflow with life energy. Overflowing life energies is the same as losing life energies through spinal vibrations. These are the ounces of freed life energies that my body couldn’t contain during meditation.

Date: 5 June 2026

1 Duration: 38 minutes at 1:51 PM

2 Duration: 16 minutes at 10:29 PM

Depth:

I was able to hear the silence of my deep sleeping mind during the afternoon session. Despite lifetronic imagery, I could hear the silence that is the highlight of the dream-free mind-space. It is likely that I am getting somewhat proficient in avoiding lifetronic imagery.

I haven’t yet advanced enough as a meditator to arrive at a sublayer of the deep sleeping mind where my attention has access to spiritually significant lifetronic imagery. Since it will be the first time in all the lives I have lived, I am highly uncertain about when I’ll be viewing spiritually significant imagery.

It could be a wait of a handful of sessions or a wait of years of regular meditation, I can’t tell. Presently, I am content to occasionally hear the silence that accompanies the dreamless deep sleeping mind. Although I would love to advance right into viewing visions, in reality I don’t know what the next sublayer of the deep sleeping mind will bring.

Listening to the silences of a motionless consciousness is wonderful. When I came out of the afternoon session yesterday, I sat with my hobby stitching project. For hours of stitching, the muscles of my face and eyes felt like I had woken up after 6 hours of dream packed nightly sleep.

Date: 4 June 2026

1 Duration: 39 minutes at 1:34 PM

2 Duration: 25 minutes at 10:49 PM

Depth:

Yesterday’s afternoon session was peculiar. With every conscious inhalation, a short series of lifetronic images would present themselves to my attention. I would barely be able to keep an eye on the corresponding exhalation and then the whole experience would repeat. It was so unusual.

It was almost as if each breath intake was an opportunity for one set of self fulfilling lifetronic imagery to flood my attention. Every breath intake generated a new series of lifetronic content. Since I am growing in skill to avoid such imagery, I was able to avoid them through 39 minutes.

There was a change in ‘peculiar “knocking” sounds’ during the bedtime session. Beginning with year 2025, the inward guiding sound has undergone changes nearly every time I have heard it.

I have a feeling that I have just barely stepped into the 7th stage of Dhyana within Patanjali’s 8 limbed instructions for Raja Yoga. I first heard a ‘peculiar “knocking” sound’ back in June of 2023. The inward guiding sound was possible because life energy chose to withdraw from its incessant outward flow through my sense of hearing.

The sound in the medium of an ever growing inner peace, has guided my attention right into my deep sleeping mind. My attention wouldn’t have learned to be seated without the blessing of the inward guiding sound.

Date: 3 June 2026

1 Duration: 33 minutes at 2:18 PM

2 Duration: 29 minutes at 6:13 PM

Depth:

For a few weeks now, there has been a change in the manner in which I hear ‘peculiar “knocking” sounds’. I can guess accurately when the sound will be played next.

Before I attempted fixing my gaze and focus at the point between my eyebrows, I couldn’t anticipate the guiding sound. I heard the first clacking sound back in June of 2023. In the first half year of 2024 I even assumed that the phenomenon of inward guiding sound was in my past. I was wrong.

Between mid-2024 and a few weeks back, my attention had learned to be seated in the centre of my head where the nose meets the throat. When the blessed sound wouldn’t guide my meditation, I would remain content waiting for it in attention’s seat.

With the seat in the centre of my head, all previously freed life energy began gathering in the spot every time I meditated. Gathered life energies began turning into self-fulfilling lifetronic imagery. Gurudev Paramahansa Yogananda suggests avoiding lifetronic images.

I have been somewhat successful in shifting attention’s new found seat more to the front of my head. For the past few weeks, my sessions have been either about avoiding lifetronic imagery or an unfamiliar advancement of being seated between my eyebrows.

As and when my attention finds its seat in the centre of my head where the nose meets the throat, I can tell that the next inward guiding ‘peculiar “knocking” sound’ will be played. That’s a change since life energies began their gentle withdrawal from my sense of hearing back in June of 2023.

Now my attention also turns to the sound being played from close to the forehead. I can feel the subtlest of vibrations running along the nasal tract and upper incisors when the sound comes from the forehead. When will there be enough advanced meditators in the world to have dedicated clinical observations conducted for such advancements?

Date: 2 June 2026

1 Duration: 28 minutes at 1:29 PM

2 Duration: 24 minutes at 4:17 PM

3 Duration: 20 minutes at 10:58 PM

Depth:

During yesterday’s first session, my attention was split between my body and meditation. Thankfully, my attention is able to access the relatively motionless parts of my deep sleeping mind even when my body is hormone influenced.

After yesterday’s second session I realised that the session wasn’t enough for my attention to catch up with the sleep deprivation from the night before. At around 6:30 PM, I did sleep for an hour. I abandoned hobby stitching and fell asleep.

Yesterday’s bedtime session had the best depth of all 3 sessions. I didn’t last long in those wonderful depths but I had given myself the opportunity to, simply by sitting upright before sleep.

Date: 1 June 2026

Duration: 33 minutes at 3:00 PM

Depth:

The circumstances I live in, the one I have lived in for decades now, is most unusual. I know for a fact that the greater the details I describe my circumstances in, the more I’ll feel distant to anyone who listens to it. No one I know likes to say ‘I understand’ even if they did. No one who has said ‘I understand’, meant it.

I wept through a large part of those 33 minutes yesterday. I wept because of the lack of human connection that is an inevitable part of everyone’s life now. I wept because I still have memory of one deep connection with a loved one who passed away exactly 13 years back.

I can’t tell anymore if my desire for a divine connection is alienating me from fellow humans or has the alienation been the favourable condition to develop a deep inner peace. ‘Fellow humans’ is an umbrella term in which I include family members.