Meditations

Date: 6 July 2026

Duration: 61 minutes at 2:32 PM

Depth:

I would most definitely rate this session the least in terms of quality given the last 5 sessions of 61 minutes each. Early in the session, a shutting door had removed me from the depths I had reached. And from that moment on, I had it shallow.

Boundless, peaceful and obstruction free kind of meditation without any promise of moving further in. That’s exactly how the session was. After more than 2 decades of practicing, I know that meditations without even a subtle movement inward are the kind that have the power to keep you from growing indefinitely.

Date: 5 July 2026

Duration: 61 minutes at 2:34 PM

Depth:

I am very familiar with the pattern of concentration that this session had. It began with the farthest that my attention could go within the depths of my mind. As the session advanced, I meditated in relatively shallower parts of my mind.

I have, for the longest time, interpreted sessions like these as my attention’s shyness from an entirely new depth of mind. For years, my attention has been able to sense an upcoming new depth of mind. A depth that has always been a part of me but not a part of my meditative journey. The uncertainty of it makes my attention naturally shy rather than spiritually adventurous.

In more than 2 decades of my practice, I have taught myself to be extremely patient with my attention. With yesterday’s post lunch fatigue, my attention dived headlong to the depths of my mind until it sensed a new terrain. From there on, my meditation kept moving steadily to relatively shallower parts of my mind until I opened my eyes to find less than 3 minutes remaining in my preset 61 minutes timer.

Since September of 2025, my attention has been given access to my deep sleeping mind. My attention has learned to be seated in the mind-space’s motionlessness ever since. As my attention kept shying away gradually from the best depth it had arrived at in yesterday’s meditation, I kept meditating. I didn’t face any mental rebellion in keeping up with meditation even in the relatively shallower regions.

Date: 3 July 2026

Duration: 61 minutes at 2:21 PM

Date: 4 July 2026

Duration: 61 minutes at 3:17 PM

Depth:

The session on 3rd July was pleasantly uninterrupted. Unlike the session on the 2nd of July, the one on 3rd was one straight session without me opening my eyes until there were only 3 minutes and 41 seconds remaining on the 61 minutes timer.

The meditation itself was of good concentration. My attention was fixed, therefore the meditation effortless. Yesterday’s session (4th July) wasn’t so mentally smooth for my attention as the 3rd. That is perfectly fine because I meditated straight for 56 minutes straight. There were less than 5 minutes remaining on my preset 61 minutes timer when I first opened my eyes.

I have been enjoying sitting and stretching limbs with eyes open in the last few minutes. Of course, I don’t know if that’s how my meditation will go today. Having meditated for the full duration in the afternoons, I have been conducting all my post session activities through the evening with no concern about completing any duration related goals at bedtime.

Date: 2 July 2026

Duration: 61 minutes at 2:04 PM

Depth:

Some of my ‘I’-ness seems to be missing!

Since September of 2025 my attention has been blessed with the irreversible meditational advance into my deep sleeping mind. It is then that I have realised that the years beginning March of 2020 and ending September of 2025 have been about undoing earthly desires at their roots.

In the time period mentioned, my attention has advanced from succumbing to desire led outward moving thoughts to learning how to be seated in the motionless deep sleeping mind. I had, back in 2020, erroneously assumed that my first spinal vibration meant that I was developing my intuition too.

Developing intuition requires calm that lies in the depth of one’s deep sleeping mind. The mind-space is dreamless because it is motionless. Since September of 2025 I have inched further into my deep sleeping mind. It is interesting for me to note where I found myself in yesterday’s meditation session.

I had made up my mind to sit for an hour at the least. I didn’t want to keep thinking about another session once I sat with my favourite evening activity of hobby stitching. Not once during the 61 minutes session did I experience the faintest amount of internal rebellion for committing to an hour.

I had an unmoving attention almost all through those 61 minutes. The analogy I have of such a fixed-attention perspective is that of fixed-camera shots. One can have the main character of the film at an outdoors spot with the whole of the outdoors backdrop changing rapidly. The changes typically involve a sunrise/sunset within seconds.

Scenes like that don’t have much movement in the storyline and the main character’s pose. They are used to capture the main character’s realisation of being fixated. Shots like that can convey direction while paused. Soaked in adrenaline. My attention’s perspective in the depth of the sublayer of my deep sleeping mind it was meditating in, had such a perspective. I tried letting my attention move outward along with a thought but it wouldn’t!

Date: 1 July 2026

Duration: 19 minutes at 5:07 PM

Depth:

It was nearly 12 hours straight of work with the last 1 hour of hobby stitching when I sat upright for meditation. Stitching had made me aware of fatigue. At the first opportunity, I began meditating.

Date: 29 June 2026

1 Duration: 21 minutes at 9:17 AM

2 Duration: 25 minutes at 3:13 PM

Date: 30 June 2026

1 Duration: 32 minutes at 8:28 AM

2 Duration: 35 minutes at 3:25 PM

Depth:

Except for the 21 minutes meditation on the morning of 29th June, the remaining 3 sessions are about the silences that are peculiar to a certain sublayer of the deep sleeping mind.

The silences are peculiar, no doubt. Since September of 2025 I have been meditating in the deep-sleeping mind-space. Thanks to regular deposits of blessings, I have advanced within the deep-sleeping mind-space since September.

The strangest part of the deep-sleeping silence is that I can listen to it even after I have had my attention turned outward for many hours before meditation. All the mental chatter about all the new set of difficulties in the new season is silenced in deep-sleep’s silences!

This silence is definitely not the same as the silence that comes by keeping screen time to the minimum. This silence is about knowing that even after all mental chatter is done echoing the news, there is life and consciousness.

Deep-sleeping mind’s silence has strength to it. It is alive. It can flex its consciousness without having to move! Most of all, these blessed silences are a get-away at will from all the thoughts running through all the grooves in my brain.

Date: 27 June 2026

1 Duration: 32 minutes at 3:09 PM

2 Duration: 8 minutes at 11:15 PM

Depth:

Unfortunately I haven’t meditated on 28th June. Not even once. Also, I am attempting to write the details for the 27th on the 29th. I shouldn’t try to recall either session that I am trying to write about. That’s because I am sure to remember it wrong.

All my meditation sessions occur at a depth of mind where I can’t quite form memories. In these depths, my fundamental type seems to be undergoing a change but I can’t remember what happened in there.

I have taken Gurudev Paramahansa Yogananda’s suggestion to avoid lifetronic imagery to heart. So not only did I not pay attention to the backdrop of my practice while I practiced but also I refuse to make an effort right now to recall any significant content that made for the background.

I assumed that my fundamental type of mind ran thoughts in brain grooves that have been grooved in through many lifetimes. Life energy as inner peace since the end of year 2022 has undone my nature fundamentally. I can’t help but respond peacefully. I am unable to get angry.

I am getting only mildly, somewhat superficially, disappointed with some realisations about my life and lifestyle. Inner peace has, in about 3 recent sessions, relaxed my breathing to a gentle pause! I am most definitely looking forward to the end of body consciousness in meditation.

In the Mahabharata, long after the Battle of Kurukshetra, in chapter 13, Bhishma finds the right moment to leave his fatally wounded physical self. According to Gurudev Paramahansa Yogananda, Bhishma represents human body consciousness.

Date: 26 June 2026

Duration: 28 minutes at 9:12 AM

Depth:

Much after the only session yesterday I caught 40 winks from 4:45 PM to 4:55 PM. I regret snoozing. I could very well have meditated for those 10 minutes. Snoozing doesn’t compare to the kind of rest I am receiving in meditation.

I saw an opportunity to meditate that early in the day and grabbed it. A session nearly 4 hours into my morning routine wasn’t supposed to be as deep as it turned out to be. For 2 plus decades of my practice before my attention was granted access to my deep sleeping mind, my mind’s freshly woken state would be a deterrent to meditation.

Due to a habit of possibly many lifetimes, my attention would be ready for the daily fight after coming out of sleep. This subconscious mental habit has changed much in the last few months. Since September of 2025 my attention has learned to sit and not run outward along with every thought.

My attention is able to sit in the motionless deep sleeping mind even when it is not fatigued. My attention doesn’t need sleepiness to launch into the farthest depths of my mind that it has been given access to.

Yesterday’s session is probably the second session ever of its kind. I would practice the meditation technique until there would be no breath to hook my technique to. I would notice that my breathing movement is gone and resume the technique. Then it would happen again. The stillness would still my breathing too.

Date: 25 June 2026

1 Duration: 48 minutes at 3:10 PM

2 Duration: 14 minutes at 11:51 PM

Depth:

It is wonderful to be listening to the silences of the motionless deep sleeping mind once again. My attention wasn’t left free of the clutter of lifetronic images but I was able to hear the deep silences of the deep sleeping mind.

Date: 23 June 2026

Duration: 36 minutes at 3:04 PM

Date: 24 June 2026

Duration: 52 minutes at 3:29 PM

Date: 25 June 2026

Duration: 21 minutes at 12:18 AM

Depth:

There was deep silence in these sessions. The kind of silence that accompanies a certain sublayer of the deep sleeping mind. It is the silence that undoes the mind cluttering effect of lifetronic imagery.

Even though lifetronic imagery is fulfilling in nature, it is imagery. My attention can truly turn the TV off! Allow me to explain.

For lifetimes, my attention has assumed that movement is life. That’s why it has taken me nearly 26 years of meditating to arrive at the knowledge of my deep sleeping mind. It is a mind-space that is motionless but conscious. Since September of 2025 I have been experiencing the motionless parts of my mind. I now know that motionlessness is definitely not lifelessness.

I consider myself extremely fortunate to be granted life enough in this lifetime to have my attention relearn its relation with imagery. No image can stick to a stilled attention.

In a way, all 26 years of my practice have been about my attention overcoming imagery. I have gone from fear motivated solution seeking in my early sessions to being bullied by desires through subconscious dream imagery to peaceful projections of undying desires.

In recent weeks, I have had pooled life energy inside my head fulfilling desires for me through lifetronic imagery. These are desires I didn’t know existed. Lifetronic imagery is the finest of all the types of imagery I have ever had to overcome. Yet, I know that even these are about earthly desires and not divine longings.

Date: 21 June 2026

Duration: 28 minutes at 2:45 PM

Date: 22 June 2026

1 Duration: 48 minutes at 2:30 PM

2 Duration: 21 minutes at 11:23 PM

Depth:

There really isn’t much to write about in detail about these three sessions. All three were of the same level of depth. In many recent blogposts I have written about the various aspects of the depth in great detail.

I know that at some point life energy will lead my attention away from lifetronic images to greater stillness. However, that point of time wasn’t arrived at in the three sessions I am writing about.

Date: 20 June 2026

1 Duration: 8 minutes at 2:18 PM

2 Duration: 40 minutes at 3:55 PM

Depth:

I won’t be counting the 8 minutes session in today’s title for this writing. That session was short because I had to answer the doorbell. Although short, my attention was tucked well within my deep sleeping mind. It is the sublayer of the mind-space where lifetronic imagery flows in freely.

The first chance I got after the shortly interrupted session, I sat upright one more time. From the first session, I came out with my attention rested in the deep sleeping mind. The second reasonably long session was about spending even more time in the same sublayer of the deep sleeping mind.

Lifetronic imagery is generated by life energy. The other, much older term for life energy is ‘prana’. Life energy is all that has guided my meditation sessions since March of 2020. Of all the energy that was stubbornly tied to my body and mind, an ounce seemed to have become freed back in March of 2020.

Calmness and relaxation can free up life running energy. Once freed, it doesn’t leave immediately. It takes on the role of guiding the meditator to better depths of mind. Right now, prana is generating self fulfilling imagery of absolutely no spiritual significance.

What I have to somehow gain mastery over is to be able to avoid such imagery while meditating. The imagery is compelling due to its pranic origins. I have followed the Energy for more than 6 years now. In avoiding the imagery it is generating, I am trying to unfollow my number 1 meditation guide!

Date: 19 June 2026

1 Duration: 55 minutes at 4:08 PM

2 Duration: 16 minutes at 10:43 PM

Depth:

The four o’clock session was full of lifetronic imagery. Since I am committed to avoid lifetronic imagery, I kept going in the session and ended up logging a filling 55 minutes. Also, I couldn’t wait for the circumstances in which I would meditate.

I was getting sleepy with my hobby stitching and I didn’t want to sleep. I wanted one room to be free enough for me to use my sleepiness in order to meditate at my deepest best. And I did meditate in my established deepest best.

The ultra quiet which I have experienced in two or three recent sessions may have been a glimpse into forthcoming depths of mind. The one session from day before yesterday with the spiritual eye in it also seems like a glimpse into forthcoming ultra-stillness of mind.

Date: 18 June 2026

1 Duration: 30 minutes at 2:43 PM

2 Duration: 12 minutes at 10:58 PM

Depth:

I may have spent just a few seconds right at the beginning of the afternoon session viewing the spiritual eye. But it didn’t feel like my attention was in the stillness that is required to view the third eye.

Yesterday’s afternoon session may have been the kind that begins with a glimpse into another depth of concentration and then quickly settles into the irreversible best depth that I am capable of.

Date: 17 June 2026

1 Duration: 46 minutes at 1:35 PM

2 Duration: 15 minutes at 11:12 PM

Depth:

Both these sessions lacked the depth of the ultra quiet sublayer of the deep sleeping mind. Since I have got a taste of the image-free, motionless sublayer, I missed it during yesterday’s sessions. However, I didn’t miss the depths of the sublayers that are relatively shallow compared to the ultra-quiet zone.

The relatively shallow sublayers have considerable depth of mind to them. There are lifetronic images here that I am yet to outgrow. There are ever changing ‘peculiar “knocking” sounds’ that are on their way to evolve and guide my sessions further. There is the occasional upward jerk to my head due to life energies trying to stream straight out of my head, in line with my straightened spine.

Date: 15 June 2026

1 Duration: 37 minutes at 2:55 PM

2 Duration: 27 minutes at 12:06 AM (16 June)

Depth:

These two sessions lacked that ultra quiet space in my mind that I have been experiencing in many of my sessions recently. In the hours that followed the afternoon session, I felt sure that it was the nap before the session that kept my attention from entering the deeply quiet mind-spaces.

I wasn’t so sure after the late night bedtime session. By the late night session, I was sure that I was entering the session with the right amount of fatigue. My attention fatigued due being awake for many hours is reason enough to for it to launch into the depths where my attention gets the rest it deserves.

It seems like I am in the meditational phase of my decades long practice in which my attention has to learn to make the ultra-quiet and irreversible part of its advancement into my deep sleeping mind. May I keep up practice patiently. Although I write this piece in the morning hours of 17 June 2026, the midnight hour of 15th June is the last that I have meditated.

Date: 14 June 2026

1 Duration: 29 minutes at 11:54 AM

2 Duration: 25 minutes at 11:11 PM

Depth:

These two sessions were wonderfully quiet. I had opportunity to experience the quiet of the newly found sublayer within my deep sleeping mind.

It is quiet in the new sublayer of the deep mind because the sublayer is relatively more motionless than the sublayer before it. There is no imagery to deal with in the latest sublayer.