#1pm thoughts

Lowkey disappointed TWST doesn’t do a Sam-related event regarding Mardi Gras and how rich New Orleans culture can be.

a different part of my heart beats for each thing i bury inside it

how is it that i’ve felt for so long i was walking in a straight line long enough to heal to mend to be whole only to realize i’ve been running in a circle right back to what broke me in the first place

and after all my prying you finally let me in but your heart opens up to reveal daggers and i realize once again that i've made a habit of begging for my own demise

they say your mind must be a beautiful place to live and i say yes and smile but to myself i think it’s a bit like living in a forest caught fire there is so much wonder but so quickly fading so quickly swallowed by smoke

why is it that when someone breaks another brittle piece of me i hurt for them rather than for myself

he smiles and thinks he's somewhere new as he answers me through teeth that aren't yours and what i dont tell him is that i already knew exactly how tall he was that i remember too well what 6'4 looks like feels like because it used to be wrapped around me 6 nights out of 7 back when i didn't have to ask strangers in bars empty questions