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memories 

before coming into the room for the m&g i stood outside with my mum, and my friend kim and her mum. at this entrance preston was there, and me and my kim over heard him say to another crew member that we would be the first set of people to get individual photos with the boys. i could feel myself starting to shake from nerves, and then the next second preston opened the curtain for me and the next 10 people to walk through. stepping into the entryway in front of me i could see members of the team stood with lights and cameras and another person stopped us to let us through one by one. so i was now stood around the corner from the boys, and my anxiety started to build up more and more, and then i see louis walk forward and bend down to pick something up right in front of me and that’s when everything hit me all at once.

the guy told me and my mum to go through, and as i stepped through i turned the corner and that’s when everything stopped. i had to stand still and bend over to take a deep breathe. i literally couldn’t believe they were real. when i looked back up i could see my mum off talking to harry and niall and louis talking to each other at the other side, and right there in the middle was liam. liam who was looking at me with the biggest smile on his face and that instantly washed most of my anxieties away, when he noticed that i’d gathered myself together he opened his arms up inviting me in for a hug and as i approached him he said how cool he thought my shirt was (since it was marvel). i got to him and wrapped my arms around his neck and his went around my waist, i told him how much i love him and thank you for everything, and then as we pulled back i told him ‘you’ve saved my life’ and then he made that face that he usually makes when he hears that kind of thing, and he pulled me back in for a tighter hug, this time rubbing my back and saying stuff like 'bring it in’ 'it’s all okay’ and i honestly had never felt as loved as that before, i couldn’t stop smiling.

this time when we pulled apart he asked me where i was from, and when i said yorkshire he turned to louis and started to celebrate how i’m from yorkshire and i’m wearing a marvel shirt, which louis then approached me with biggest smile ever, and we both had a little moment together shouting 'oi oi’ 😂 after which louis opened his arms for me to hug him and i rushed into them and held onto him so tight, i told him how much i love him and how thankful i am for him and i really wish i could remember what he said back to me but i was so blissed out by the fact that i had my entire world in my arms that i just couldn’t focus on anything it was overpowering. the only thing i remember was how soft his voice was and the gentle rub of his hands on my back. when he pulled back to speak to me a little more he kept his arms on my waist and i kept mine around his shoulders whilst he spoke, he asked me which part of yorkshire i’m from and when i said leeds, he gave this massive smirk and was like 'leeds yeah’.

and then before i could say anything more niall pulled me into a hug, when he overheard me say leeds and was like 'aye up’ - cheeky twat. i told niall how much i love him and how thankful i am, and yet again i honestly can’t remember what he said to me, it felt so much like a dream. so pulling away from niall i looked around for harry, and when i spotted him across the other side he was just stood there looking at me, waiting with the biggest smile on his face and it honestly made me rush over to him to give him a massive hug, i told him i love him and said thank you for everything and he replied saying thank you for coming and that he hopes i enjoy show.

for the picture i stood between liam and louis, and after it was taken liam kept his arm on me and turned to me once again comforting me and just making me feel so safe. he said to me to 'promise me you won’t cry’ and i did honestly almost cry but i tried taking a deep breathe so i could say to him that i promise, and when i did his smile grew so much more than i thought possible. louis was also still at my side and as i started to walk out the room he rubbed my back comfortingly once again and said something along the lines of 'enjoy the show darling’ again i can’t fully remember. and when i left the room i fell straight on the floor because i just lost all feeling of my body.