#19.1.26

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Enjoying this show but also having the thought am I supposed to be projecting onto the high school boy because like lol

Despite some strong imagery implying the particulars of her mental state I've found Asa to be somewhat lacking in definition at least within the first 2 episodes, some of her character traits feeling almost infantile at times - she hasn't been a convincing teenager in the same way Makio has been a convincing adult. But thankfully this episode largely ramifies that, so we ball.

Can I be completely serious if anything I think I lack some emotions too much like I was literally assaulted today and I'm not like angry or upset my reaction was surprise when it happened and several hours removed I'm just like "it's weird that that happened". And like a coworker was so shocked and stressed by the ordeal she was crying and it's like, I didn't really feel anything about that fact. I performed sympathetic because I know that's how I'm supposed to feel in that scenario but like. Like it's not like I didn't care but I didn't actually feel upset or anything. I get that and stuff like that a lot really. Often it's just hard for things to evoke an actual emotional response from me. Is what it is.

it's impressive how much worse this is without knuckleduster lol. we're sitting there focusing on the fucking only named cop from the main series like I truly do not give a singular fuck of a shit.