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两年前的文，发某江被锁（没办法毕竟是肉啊）

存在这里给自己时不时啃一啃

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意琦行醒来的时候，画舫里依然只有自己一人。

江水映江月，粼粼叹无声。

记不起这是多少次来月之画舫，明明知道画舫之主已逝。

那日自己在江边捧着亲笔所写的悼文，才念了几行已是泣不成声。薄纸化作飞灰，自此失了理智持千秋阙誓杀尽曾加害于他之人。

“染上你献血的人，吾一个也不会留下！”

然而待到夜幕降临，铺天盖地的悲伤掩不住，心底的痛楚消不尽，恍惚之间，体随心而动，回过神来却总能发现自己已身在江边。

极目远望，前日被自己亲手解开缆绳消失在江面的画舫，不知为何如今却稳稳停在岸边，空荡荡的帷幔，空荡荡的船，船身被江水拍打，摇摇晃晃。

“兄弟你是舍不得我，舍不得这你我曾对饮高歌的画舫吗？”

意琦行握着被江水打湿的缆绳，无力再将它拆开，只收了剑，飞身而入画舫间。

终是夜夜宿于江上，抱着一坛雪黼酒，愿只愿，时光骤停于此。

沧浪水清，不濯吾悲；夏夜蝉鸣，不暖吾心；唯有冷月流光，映着不归人的不归之路，唯有那等着不归人归来的人，以雨水掩泪，以烈酒祭江。

不知今夕何夕，不知世事无常。

道是醉了，便能再见当年胜雪白衣，玉骨扇掩不住的紫眸笑意。

意琦行抚着船头的长弓，一阵剧痛袭上头，看来今日是有点喝多了。揉着太阳穴欲回画舫内歇息。

又是一个不眠之夜吗？

吾还睡得着，还能期待明日又是个美好的一天吗？

你不在，吾哪里还有美好的一天。

红尘之中，若少了你，吾之伟业，谁来喝彩，吾之悲喜，谁与共饮。

意琦行叹了口气，顾不上拭去不知何时滑落脸颊的泪水——兄弟，你走之后，伟哉剑宿当真是泪涟涟，你却看不见了——捡起滑落在地的酒坛，手伸到一半却骤然僵住——原本应躺在画舫船底的雪黼酒坛，不知何时已失了踪影，江上的风亦悄悄没了声息，天地之间，一时寂静非凡。

——谁！？

意琦行只来得及拔起千秋剑，船身忽而一阵颠簸，竟是下盘不稳，直直朝前栽了去。

若是往日，以剑宿之能，断不会如此狼狈，然而这日醉大的人，恍惚之间，发起了诸如若遇袭亦可随他去了罢的胡思乱想。

“伟哉剑宿，何时变得这么毫无警惕心了，嗯？”

“啊呀呀，何人如此该死，竟惹得伟哉剑宿落泪涟涟。”

如往日一般熟悉的口吻，末尾微微上扬的语调，带了三分调侃。

“吾说过，你可直呼吾意琦行……”

意琦行下意识接话，抬眸斜斜望去，却是愣在当场。

白衣胜雪的人将剑宿搂在怀，眉眼弯弯，丝毫不掩笑意盈盈。

“兄弟，吾又醉了……你别在意……”意琦行只觉鼻尖一酸，这是多少次又在醉梦中相见了，“只有醉了，你才会回来。”

绮罗生不语，俯下身来，长发撩得意琦行脖颈微痒，意琦行想抬手去拨开，却被绮罗生握住，扣在手心，低下头埋脸而入，温热的鼻息喷在掌心。意琦行稍感意外——往日的梦里，他可不是这样的。

可往日的梦里他又是哪样的，自己却怎么也忆不起了。

绮罗生也很无语，自己好容易从鬼门关走一遭，尚未完全恢复便急急赶去叫唤渊数，却不见兄弟人影，直到云渡山遇见了秦假仙，才知道他已经霸占了自己的画舫数日。看着这醉大的剑宿，脸颊通红，喃喃低语自己的名字，教人又气又好笑，又好笑又心酸。

只是想将他抱进船内别受了江风寒气，这人却靠在自己怀里手揽着脖颈不放，半眯的眼盯着自己，瞧了一眼好似要将人吸入那片深蓝之渊，沉沦百世不得出。

“这不是梦，这是兄弟我自黄泉归来找你。”

“醉了……便能再见你了……”

“吾回来了，你却醉了。”

意琦行已经不去想兄弟说了什么话，只抱着人不愿撒手，迷蒙间抚上他的脸，竟抬头吻了上去，软软的稍显干裂的薄唇，让他下意识伸出舌尖舔舐，似是想舔尽兄弟在尘世的苦乐悲欢，舔尽他灵魂深处恸哭着的每一滴血泪。

这是独属于他的牡丹花香。

剑宿觉得自己这梦，做得太真实。

映着月色，剑宿被酒晕红的脸颊，微垂的眉眼，失了焦点的瞳，散了发带披落一肩的银发，萦绕在鼻息之间的酒香，和酒醉之人毫无章节的舔舐。

绮罗生慨叹了一声，侧过头亲亲意琦行的脸颊。

“兄弟这般情深，吾只好，以身相许了。”

帷幔落下，吹了灯，唯有江上之明月，与山间之清风，流泻船间，撩起攒动的衣角，银发交结，分不清彼此。绮罗生任意琦行舔舐自己的唇，舌尖轻抵他齿间，撬开牙关，勾住他的舌缠绕，手亦扶着他的后脑勺渐渐深入。

忽觉唇上吃痛，淡淡的血腥味浮起，绮罗生顿住，以手撑起身子，却见意琦行睁着尚未清明的眼瞪着自己，得意洋洋。

“吾很早…”说着意琦行又咬了他一口，这次却是咬在脖颈，“很早就想这么做了。”

说好绝不能死，你倒好，走得比谁都干脆…吾可是忍着这一口气很久了。

“兄弟你想作甚？”

“你。”

意琦行稍加施力，便翻身将人压在身下，埋脸入颈细细啃噬，噙着他的绮罗异耳，在他耳边吃吃笑起来。

醉鬼就是醉鬼，就算是剑宿，也是醉鬼剑宿。

绮罗生任由意琦行趴在自己身上如此这般那般，手却不知何时已经解开了意琦行的衣带，只轻轻一扯，衣衫半褪，月光洒落剑宿裸露的背，往日所受的伤，疤痕虽已淡去，在清冷月下依然闪着微亮的光泽。感觉到背上一凉，剑宿不甘示弱，以齿咬着绮罗生的衣襟缓缓解开，舌尖抵上胸前，打着旋儿舔舐，手也未曾闲着，轻轻扯落绮罗生的衣物，探入裤内，绮罗生搂着剑宿的背，忍不住仰头发出长长叹息。

“呵……”

抬手埋入剑宿的银发，扯落发带，散落的发覆盖在自己裸露的胸前，绮罗生侧头看了眼帷幔外江上的朗月。

明明没有喝酒，却也醉了。

绮罗生另一手游走在剑宿的衣间，一路向下。

正对着自家兄弟的胸前卖力的剑宿发觉过来时，已有一指自身后悄悄探入自己体内，浑身一僵，迷蒙的眼不可置信地看着他。

“兄弟！”

“乖，不要紧张。”

绮罗生只亲了亲他的脸颊，一手揽着他的脖颈重又纠缠上他的唇舌，一手则暗自施力，稍作停歇，又探入一指，稍稍弯曲。

“……别这样！”

待到醉大的剑宿终于反应过来，欲翻身逃脱，说时迟那时快，腰身被早有心理准备的绮罗生扣住，对着自己腰间直直按下。

嘶——

二人不约而同颤抖起来，剑宿是痛到极致，绮罗生却是满足到极致的叹息。

“绮罗生你！！！”

撕裂般的疼痛让剑宿只来得及蹦出这四字。

船身摇晃，已经分不清是因为江水，还是船内之景。

醉大剑宿此刻已经完完全全清醒了过来，以手撑地，跪坐在绮罗生身上，浑身都止不住的颤抖，散落的发垂在绮罗生脸上，后者却因为他痛楚的表情而变得更为兴奋。绮罗生伸手揽住意琦行的脖颈，指尖缓缓划过他背上的伤痕，激得身上的人一阵战栗，修长的手指最终落在他腹间。

“这里的伤，居然还没好，兄弟，你这些日子都干什么去了。”

明明在做坏事，却还能风淡云轻一般说着话。

指上稍稍施力，剑宿吃痛，却极力忍住已到嘴边的呻吟，低头抵着绮罗生的下巴，全身的触感似乎都积聚在下身交合之处，船身摇晃，小绮罗生在他体内，血管突突地跳动，每一个动作都让他的脸红一阵白一阵，咬着牙坐稳，双腿却已经脱力，浑身微微泛着红色。

醉大剑宿。

醉人剑宿。

绮罗生抚上他的脸，凑过去轻轻吻上他眼角的泪，一点一点，有如朝圣一般认真仔细。

这样的人到底为什么还如此镇静，明明已经那么滚烫。

剑宿已经想不出更恶毒的话来骂了，意识在流失，酒劲又泛上，这般却未有更多一步的动作，清风袭来，燥热难耐，轻轻动了动腰，想提醒他，却不知道要提醒什么。

“你倒是动啊…”

剑宿被自己的话惊住了，脑子里轰的一声炸开，登时红了脸，咬着牙关不再吱声儿。

一抬头却撞见绮罗生清澈的紫瞳，深深望着自己，一时无言。

绮罗生握着剑宿微微颤抖的手，抚上自己光裸的胸口，抚过那处深深的疤痕，抚着疤痕下炽热跳动的心，自黄泉归来的人，心跳比往日更为有力，一下一下撞击剑宿的掌心，似是与他的脉搏共鸣。

“兄弟，你曾问过我，如果生命只留下一天，我要怎么过。”

“我那日没有答你。”

“我想，如果生命只留下一天，我会自己一人过，因为那也是兄弟你受苦之日。”

“兄弟…吾归来了，也不会再让你受苦。”

剑宿微怔，感慨上心头，欲有多言，却只觉绮罗生搂着自己的腰轻轻一顶，登时撞散了头脑里所有的意识。

“所以，兄弟也别让吾受苦嘛。”绮罗生微微屈起一腿靠在船身，让人趴在自己胸前，更深入了几分，惹得身上的人又是一阵颤抖，“兄弟若不愿，吾也不勉强，只是，吾可是伤未愈就来寻你啊……”

余下的话被尽数收入唇齿之间，意琦行犹豫半晌，最后一手盖住绮罗生的眉眼，一手扯下帷幔盖住二人，低头狠狠咬住绮罗生的脖颈，舔舐着淡淡的血腥。

绮罗生的睫毛轻轻刷着自己的掌心，乖巧如幼鹿一般。

有温热的液体带着血腥味流出，意琦行只当没有发现，抱着绮罗生，有如抱着失而复得的私有物，想揉进自己的骨血里再也不放走，意乱情迷，恍惚里绮罗生弯着眉眼对着自己笑，比往日要好看几分。

“吾说过，你若忘记回来，上天入地，意琦行绝不放过你。”

痛是极致的，也是满足的，他最珍视的人此刻就在自己身体里，不曾离开，这痛是他造成的，滚热是他的体温，跳动是他的经脉，鼻息里，血肉里，天地之间，都只有他独有的牡丹花香。他的兽花艳在他身，他的命却是早已绘入绝代剑宿的命途里。

“你的威胁，吾一日也未曾忘记。”

绮罗生咬着意琦行的耳，喘息一阵阵喷在他耳际，他的紧致与炽热让自己几近灭顶。他那么骄傲，一代剑宿，剑不过顶的人，从未垂泪的人，如今却可以此般打开自己任兄弟予取予求，他这般模样，泪珠尚在眼角，面色潮红眼神迷乱，若是让外人瞧了去，谁知道……不，他不会让外人瞧见剑宿这般模样，只有他可以看，只有他可以去品味。

与你之欢，此生何求。

绮罗生眯了眼看着月下帷幔里随着人的身体而晃动的银发，抬手毫不留情扯过来堵住那张从不饶人的嘴。

意识涣散之际，剑宿只听得耳际有如梦呓的喃喃低语。

“伟哉剑宿…很棒。”

轻哼一声。

“叫吾意琦行。”

细草微风岸。

意琦行再醒来，已是次日傍晚，月初上柳梢，画舫内依旧空无一人。

意琦行撑起手揉了揉太阳穴，觉是这次醉酒未免也太厉害了，然而只一抬手，下身传来撕裂般的同感让他登时僵住，低头看看自己，衣服褪得干干净净叠得整整齐齐摆在一旁，腰间酸痛让他差点没坐稳，下身有温热的液体缓缓流出……

定睛一瞧，竟是……竟是……

疯了。

疯了。

真的疯了。

伟哉剑宿脑子里只有这两个字。

难道吾对绮罗生之思念已到了如此不得不解决的地步！？

可为什么，会是后面——？！

“舍得醒了，醉大剑宿？”

循声望去，胜雪白衣之下，玉骨扇不掩弯弯的眉眼无尽笑意，沽酒的人提着一酒坛，倚在船头。

月色撩人，清风过江。

夏蝉未鸣，曲调先扬。

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什么叫做奸情

奸情就是当我研究意绮二人的台词对白时，竟发现，这俩人的台词用在H里竟毫无突兀之感

所以熟看《刀剑春秋》的都知道这肉的台词都是他们俩的原版台词哦呵呵呵……

doodle.

The story:Gray wolf and Little Red Riding Hood

Metroplex is grandma,I guess.XD.Starscream is wolf and he is ‘eating’ his dinner.

Starscream:Don’t tell your Metroplex that I’m here with you,understand?

Long time no see. Lot of updates. I am now 21 years old. I graduated college. I changed my direction from being an 18x to a 35N. I originally planned to go the SOT-A route as I enjoy technical things but that didn't end up working out because I've done drugs (college student has done drugs, next on abc7). I have graduated BCT and am currently in AIT. I volunteered for RASP last week and have been doing RAW PT since last week. I enjoy the macro of my life so much. I love being in the Army. I'm so incredibly grateful to have made it here. I waited for almost 2 years to graduate college and then deal with some other things that inhibited me from enlisting, and now I am finally here. I'm also so happy that I have set in stone to go to RASP. I didn't get an OP40 contract because I was trying to enlist as quick as possible, but I heard that I was able to volunteer at AIT and it was correct. Regarding the micro of my life. I'm in a weird place. I feel like I don't have any true friends here in the Army. I have one good battle buddy who I graduated BCT with, but honestly, he's kind of an asshole and doesn't really motivate me to do better. He also volunteered for RASP with me, but I think it's either a maturity thing or he just doesn't want it bad enough. He doesn't go to the gym with me nor put in any extra work outside of PT. I'll admit he's quite a bit faster than me (35 min 5 mile), but he uses that as a crutch for already being "good enough". He's also just incredibly rude and disrespectful at times, and I know the army is all about busting balls, but it just is like, dude shut up sometimes.

I also miss some things from home. I was messing around with a girl before I left and I made sure that we both understood that it wasn't anything serious, but I still seem to miss it. I found out she had a boyfriend half the time we were "together" while in basic and it just threw me off so incredibly. I ended up confronting her about it and she sent me a long, very well-spoken message, that was also quite true about how she felt confused about what we were and that I wasn't really showing enough attention/care to her. I didn't realize it at the time while going through it, but when she framed it from her POV I completely understand her. I thought I was doing the right thing by being upfront of what I wanted, but my actions were contradicting with what I was saying. I said I didn't want anything serious, but then I would text her good night and good morning every day. I said that I still cared about her as a friend but then I forgot her birthday. I said I wanted to see her, but then I would end up being "busy" (being anxious to see her). I essentially ghosted her for a month during Ramadan under the pretense of focusing on religion, which was true, but it just showed my lack of care and effort on her. I can't ever do anything like this to another person again. I hurt her and I am continuing to hurt myself by thinking about it.

There's also another woman who I worked with who had a crush on me. I'm quite a bit older than her (18 vs 21), but I ended up going on a few dates with her anyway. I realized we weren't really compatible, I think mostly because our personalities didn't really align. Even though I thought she was funny and had cool interests, it just didn't seem to click for me. Regardless I didn't really feel anything for her when I left. But I would still text her and write letters to her during basic. Just because I thought I was doing the right thing by trying to still be friends. Once I arrived at AIT, it seemed like it changed. She doesn't reach out. I forgot to mention she responded to literally one of my letters. That also by text, she couldn't even mail it to me. I also completely know the reason why it's like this. She went to college, and I went to the army. We're in two completely different worlds, and her whole world is college, while my world is half here in the army and half back home. I guess it just kind of, nulls my emotions to see people moving has That sounds so fucked up, but I don't really know a better way to put it. I don't miss home, but I miss the idea of home.

I think I will use this account more, I need a place to write. I have a lot of free time.

Here are my current fitness numbers:

Squat: 230

Deadlift: 275

Bench: 165

I've lost a good amount of strength since leaving for basic.

RFT:

HRP: 47

Plank: Max (3:40)

Chin ups: 13

5 mile: 37:56

My name is A, I am 19 years old and am studying CS in college. My goal right now is to graduate December 2024 and enlist into the US Army with either an 18x contract or as a 35P and then going to RASP. This Tumblr blog will be a sort of diary for me in the meantime; tracking workouts, thoughts, ideas - anything I want, its my blog. Here are my current metrics:

Height: 5'3

Weight: 110

SQ/B/DL: 150/125/185