i should have taken the ship date in june. i just want to leave. i just want to be away now. i want to end my life here and start my new one. and i feel like shit because i care so much about what ill be leaving behind but its so impossible. everything seems so impossible right now. i just want to be taken away right now. that way i wouldnt have to deal with this and say it was just bad timing, just like everything else that didnt go right in this fucking life.














