#18.10.2022

Had a potentially disastrous thing Happen today and handled it well. Strong smelling fish based lunch exploded in my bag and caused my laptop charger to stop working . Stayed calm, got my bag dried as best as could with Toilet paper and partitioned off the most valuable items immediately. Disposed of offending lunch reluctantly. When I got home I was able to charge my laptop again thankfully and machine washed my bag, hand cleaned all other items including electronics. Will have to find an interim bag and swear off packed lunches until I have a good leakproof solution... I was only trying to save money by packing a lunch! But these things happen. And I dealt with it without melting down. I'm able to get in a 30 min walk still driving in because of where I park, which was actually a nightmare to park in but I managed it eventually... I'm hoping things get easier and more familiar the more I do them. My horrible mother has a meeting coming up soon about her wellbeing and I'm just like... where were you during any of the crises of your children's wellbeing. It's hard to be sympathetic to her due to the history. I'm sorry she's sick but she's also used every opportunity afforded to her both when she's been well and sick to torment us and has avoided any attempt at help... This is her breakdown no 4 and us being removed from the house as kids by child protective services didn't act as a wake up call for breakdown no 3 and her nearly accidentally killing herself didn't act as a wake up call for breakdown no 2 so why do we think it's gonna be different this time... I've more or less given up on the situation. As an adult I've tried really hard not to stress her out and to be supportive and polite to a person who says and does terrible things to me and she still got sick again. It isn't my responsibility nor is it in my gif to heal her.