Ashamed and afraid to say it:
I got very drunk last night, with a huge loss of memory, but I have evidence of talking nonsense to friends. And evidence of other weird crap I did.
This is scary, in all honesty.
I need to fix it. Let's start with an easy target: no more than 4 beers on any day. If I break the rule I have to record it and do course correction
17th August 2026
P.S. this is also frustrating because I was getting my life on track after a terrible 1 year and a half - mostly because of external factors. But now *I* hurt myself













