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Sittie Janimah A. Disimban 12-STEM 13

Daily Journal 1 - Getting to know one’s self (January 27, 2021)

         My personality has been strongly influenced by the people around me. Knowing ourselves is important to know what we are and who we are. Our perception of ourselves, how we define and understand ourselves as a multi-dimensional human being. I grew up with all the love and care that was given to me by my family and friends. I am forever grateful for that. But life will never play fair. I always experienced dark days. Anxious will surely but slowly attack me every time. Those were the days I made mistakes and wrong decisions in life and praying a thousand times that I wish expectations never exist so disappointments will disappear. Blaming myself again. Every time I think of my future me. I always think I am still in the process of building myself as the woman I wanna be in the future with the help of the people around me. Guiding me what path I will choose. I want to be stronger and wiser in this unfamiliar and unfair world and still want to see the good things in every little thing in life.

Day 2 Journal

Dyan Gabriela N. Rosauro

People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret road maps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. We all have baggages inside us. Some would unravel it freely, and some would just bottle it all up.

Source: https://mindfulmontanawellness.com/2019/

Today marks the second day of our Personal Development class, wherein we share what object perfectly describes us. I was amazed by how my classmates were able to share the depth of themselves. Honestly, almost two years being tied with these people wasn't that enough to get to know their core. Through this activity, I was delighted that even just for a few minutes of discussing what object fits them, I get to know them deeper. I never imagined nor expected that some of them are like this and that. Absolutely, there's a facade within a person. You don't know them by just looking at their eyes. Months from now, we will be going to different paths and be separated from each other. I'm just truly grateful that I was able to know them and hear their stories before we enter onto our new chapter. I did understand now where they're coming from. Truly, we all have different stories to tell. And, this, will make the bond stronger, than covalent bond (pun intended haha!).

Though, we only meet virtually now, it's wonderful what happens in the classroom (virtual or not). You form a bond with the people right next to you. An unbreakable, indescribable bond. It's fantastic, being tied together like that. Whether you like it or not, whether you like them or not, you become family. The ties that binds us are sometimes impossible to explain. Because some ties are simply... meant to be.

Day 1 Journal

Dyan Gabriela N. Rosauro

Understanding one's self is important to all human beings. Knowing yourself to the core is significant in order for you to be aware of your doings. I believe that whatever you do is a reflection of you are. It mirrors your views, opinions, and personality. When you know yourself enough, you know what you're doing. You start to be accountable to youself. Doing the right or wrong thing equates to how you see and value yourself. When you start being aware of your actions and thoughts, this will help you grow and become the better version of yourself.

From my point of view, its necessary to know yourself first before indulging in the real world. Sometimes, there are things that we can't control and we have the choice on what we should do. You are the one writing your story. You have an accountability. No one can be the better evaluator of you than you.

"Your living environment is a manifestation of your inner state"

Day 5 Journal

Dyan Gabriela N. Rosauro

"It's not always rainbows and butterflies" This line from the song of Maroon 5 pretty much sums up everything I felt during the discussion of this topic. When we reach adolescence, it's no surprise to encounter stress in this period. Stress is not just the negative, there's also a positive stress.

One of the sources of adolescent's stress that hit me hard is self-doubt. My friends can attest to that(hahaha). Back in the previous academic year, I had a lot of self-doubts. I'd question my capabilities to accomplish certain tasks/achievements. To be perfectly honest, I had this one major experience that I encountered this source of stress, when I was one of the achievers in class. After seeing my grades, I questioned almost everything that out of nowhere it came to a point where I said maybe I am the "hinangyo" one. Haha! Funny, right? I know I did everything to be part of it but, I saw some flaws and then started overthinking. After that, I constantly remind myself that "The oppurtunity wouldn't come your way if you weren't capable. You belong." I'm grateful to people that saw my potential and truly believed in me.

Lesson of this, stress can either shape you or break you. It's unctrollable, the reaction is just up to us. Sometimes, it's okay to let your guard down and just acknowledge that you reached your tipping point.

Fall seven times, stand up eight.

Sittie Janimah A. Disimban 12-STEM 13

Daily Journal 3 - Being Mindful with the Self and Entering the Phase of Middle and Late Adolescence (January 29, 2021) 

       This day we tackled two lessons. The first lesson, the main lesson there talks about being mindful with the self. I was able to learn that being mindful means being aware. Varying factors influences the self, and many people are unaware of it and I have learned that the wholeness of a human being is more than just its parts. There are five areas of Personal Development. Those five areas help me to realize that It is not easy in becoming mindful with the self and it is not easy to fully develop our personality.

      The second lesson is entering the Phase of Middle and Late Adolescence. What I have learned from the second lesson we have lately is that being mindful means being aware. Varying factors influences the self, and many people are unaware of it and I have learned that the wholeness of a human being is more than just its parts. The body of an adolescent is constantly changing and occur simultaneously and it is what we call the Holistic Development. The person become more conscious in his/her physical appearance. A lot of changes occur and that I thought when I was entering this stage that this is a problem, but now I know that those changes are normal. Being at the late adolescence stage can be stressful. The responsibilities as an adolescent can change how we perceive life. The transition of being an adult from being a kid is like being a carefree young lass to a stressful one. The responsibilities of becoming an adolescent not only causes stress to your life but also encourages you to become a better person.

Day 9 Journal- March 25, 2021

In a community, an individual has a role that depends on his/her status in the group they belong. One can either be a leader or a follower in the society; nevertheless, these two roles are both important for the community to achieve its goals. A good leader-follower relationship is one of the keys for a society to make an absolute change for the betterment of everyone. Both role must unite and cooperate to each other for losing one won’t make a community achieve any of its goal.

A good leader that has the ability to lead a group and would listen and care to the members of the group is not enough and will never be enough if its follower won’t listen and cooperate with the leader. Connecting to every follower is a challenge to all the leaders of the community. Connection is important because it is the followers who’ll obey and do the action in every solution the leaders have come up every time the society faces a dilemma. All in all, both roles in the society is important, losing one will disturb the balance and a community would never achieve its goals.

Day 8 Journal -March 24, 2021

Love is vague, there is no exact definition as to what love really is and how should it be expressed. Love cannot be quantified, that is why people often wonder as to how should we really love. But, according to Gary Chapman in his book"The Five Love Languages" there actually different ways as to how a person expressed or would want to recieved love and these could either be through words of affirmation, physical touch, acts of service, quality time, or gift giving.

As I took the test to determine my love language I was a bit excited. Looking back I have never really put much of thought as to what my love language is. Whenever I hear a thing about it I would instantly think that my love language is acts of service not really understanding what that was. And the result took me by surprise. I have never thought that my primary love language is actually words of affirmation. So that explains as to why I really melt everytime people around me tell me how proud they are of me, how much they see my worth, and how great of a person I am that's I am quite easy to please. Also, the reason why I always tell the people who are dear to me encouraging words or simply words that would make them feel better about themselves. While on the other hand, I had a very I have a very low percentage when it comes to gift giving proving that I am not really giving much attention about gifts or the likes.

All in all, we all have different preferences upon how we express love and how we like to receive such. Some compliments their partner a lot, some give gifts, some serves their partner and treat them as their queen or king, some spends time with their partner as an expression of love, and some liked to cuddle a lot. Understanding one's preference of giving and receiving love is one of the keys in order to make a relationship work.