#12.13.19

Harry for the iHeart Radio ticket giveaway | December 13, 2019

Green Box Shop T-Shirt in Gold ($30)

Harry’s shirt states “WHY BE RACIST, SEXIST, HOMOPHOBIC, OR TRANSPHOBIC WHEN YOU COULD JUST BE QUIET?”. It was made famous by Frank Ocean at Panorama Festival and the link goes to the original creator’s shop!

Just Hold On (via Yun Mei)

Don’t Let It Break Your Heart (via Yun Mei)

We Made It (via Yun Mei)

Kill My Mind  (via Yun Mei)

so i finally finished editing the story i had written last night!

i had seen @pyralart 's drawing (see below) of corrupted steven and i couldnt help myself, it had such story potential even if the story is short.

note that i didnt immediately notice certain details other did so some were added after the initial writing ^_^;

any criticism is appreciated as im still learning and please forgive me if this story isnt the best oof,

(insert weird attempt at a seperation i hope it doesnt look weird when i post this)

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Steven lay lashing in his bed. He was having harsh nightmares he'd only vaguely remember when he woke up, but they were enough to leave him sweating and groaning as he tried to escape them desperately in a plane of existence outside of his control.

It was only with a jolt of physical pain did he finally awake, and he had just about screamed when he did. It took him a moment to remember where he was and that he was okay....or well...mostly okay. He was feeling physical pain actually?

He yawned and stretched, not planning on returning to such painful sleep just yet. He stood up and went to go turn on the lights when he saw a patch of darkness on his arm. A bruise? he thought, wondering how much he'd been moving around in the night. He flicked the switch to the lights and got a better look at the splotch. Looked like a bruise....but when he poked it, it didnt hurt.

He inspected his other arm to see...another spot? And another! Were these spots....spreading? He looked at his legs. There were more there, growing and growing faster. He started panicking which only made it worse.

It took all of his willpower to not start crying or screaming. He didnt want to alert the others. This is probably nothing after all right?? maybe hes just hallucinating, or ate something weird and is having a reaction! Yeah, just something along those lines surely.

He wasnt entirely convinced by his panicked excuses though. He was breathing heavily and went to go put his hands on his head to ease the headache he was suffering from and squeaked at what he felt upon his head. Sharp horns. HORNS FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!

Now he was ready to scream, but he still didnt want to be bothersome. He could fix it! Just go to the bathroom and use the diamond essences! Those will surely stop this!

He quickly walked to the bathroom, having a hard time seeing straight and walking straight too. He just about fell on his face trying to open the bathroom door.

He didnt bother turning on the light, he ran straight for the mirror and gripped the mirror with a much too tense hand as he just about slammed it open. His hand was so tense in fact that you could hear the mirror crack. He winced, the noise being louder than life yet impossible to hear over the pounding of his head. He turned the sink on and grabbed the bottles and quickly poured a few drops into the water, hands shaking. He went to go turn off the faucet but he had broke the handles before. He didn't have time for this!! He grabbed the faucet and twisted it. it kept rumbling but he would deal with it later once he was better, surely. He then splashed some water in his face, just about poking his own eye out with a claw that had sprouted from his hand.

He took a moment to pull the mirror back, accidentally cracking it some more as he finally saw himself with the help of the waters glow. He couldn't help but gasp loudly and just about pass out. His eye. Black sclera with a pink pupil. horns sticking out of his head and purple splotches ever so slowly growing and mocking him.

He stuck his face in the sink water trying even more to make it work. It did nothing. He went for the bath and started it full of panic, and tried to settle his beating heart while he waited but to no avail.

He stopped the faucet and went to go grab the diamonds bottles and ended up knocking everything off the rim of the sink in the hurry, crashing and crashing. He hoped no one could hear but the fear of them seeing him at any second was overwhelming. His mind raced like a horse as he poured the entirety of the diamond essences into the bathwater, desperately. They couldnt see him like this. They couldnt. No one could. It would be the end of the world and they'd know how much of a monster he truly was. He couldnt hide it anymore now.

He climbed into the tub, the water swirling calmly around him and illuminating the entire bathroom softly. He didnt bother to take off his clothes that he'd been wearing. He put his hands to his face, trying to not see what was happening but he wanted to know. He peeked between his fingers and watched, fearing the worst that was only getting even more worse.

The splotches still kept growing and spreading. He wanted to keep the tears from falling but the lump in his throat betrayed him and his vision blurred with tears and pain. He tried to choke out a sob uncontrollably but he couldn't even do that.

He lay paralyzed in place, uneven breathing and shifting water being the only noise in the whole universe to him. His mind spinning out of control as he drowned in his own trauma all swelling back to him like a tsunami.

Last night I was blessed to be in the room while Harry performed Fine Line Live at the Forum. I’ve struggled to process and find the right words to express the experience and feelings I had as I watched Harry on stage in person for the very first time. I sobbed the entire concert and dance and sang harder than I ever have in my life. The energy in that space was unlike anything I have ever felt and I feel that it’s important to write down the feelings I felt so that I can remember this once in a life time experience.

Golden

The music begins to play and my body erupts in goosebumps, the tears refuse to give me a chance to even attempt to hold back. They run down my face and I scream harder than I ever have. Harry comes on stage and his voice feels the room. His voice is amazing through the videos I have seen for years, but live is on a whole other level. Golden as a whole is such an amazing way to start the show. What an amazing song to dance to. The energy is high and the room is filled with Harries singing each word of a song that was released less than 24 hours before. Mitch is dancing, full blown moving around the stage. (I was so proud) It’s good to have the crew back together again.

Watermelon Sugar

Oh man, the crowd and the energy that is felt as we sing with Harry each word of a song that has become a favorite. Harry rubs his belly as he sings. He is comfortable. Proud. Happy. Harry’s dance moves are perfect, watching him dance live on stage is just so special. He is in his element.

Adore You

The volume of the crowd is something that I have never experienced. Every single person in the Forum is singing along with Harry and the band. We would walk through fire for you Harry. We just adore you that much. His voice just hits my heart and I am a mess.

Lights Up

The volume of the crowd as Harry points the microphone to us it just an out of body experience. A song that we have loved for a month is pounding through my whole soul and I am in love. SHINE! Can I just explain how energizing it is to hear the whole crowd sing SHINE back to the one person who shines the brightest in this world. This was a highlight.

Cherry

The one thought I had as this song started was this is just like Japan when Harry sang Girl Crush. The crowd that had just 2 seconds ago been louder than any concert I’ve ever experienced, is now dead silent as Harry shares his heart. Something that will probably never happen again. I am thankful for that experience. This is one amazing song live. The music as a whole is just emotional and filled my soul. Also, Ny can sing and I am so happy with his choices for the new additions. This is going to be such an amazing tour.

Falling

The room is lit with phone lights and it is such a beautiful sight. If I thought I was crying before, I am now sobbing hysterically as I watch, listen, and feel Harry’s soul and vulnerability laid out on the stage for the whole room to feel and see. This song on the album is my favorite. Hands down. Last night, this was my favorite moment. The piano shakes my soul to the core. It’s beautiful. My heart hurt for him and I could feel the emotion radiating off his body and through his voice. Singing quietly Harry sings about never evening needed again and my heart aches because this world needs this kind and gentle human. I am falling deeper in this hole of being a life long fan.

To Be So Lonely

Um first of all GO MITCH!! The fact that he is playing two instruments during this song is just so impressive. I love the crowd, pretty quiet until he calls himself an arrogant SOB. It make him smile and boy have I missed seeing him this happy on stage. I’m so glad he is back! This song live was really outstanding.

She

Oh my goodness. The music of She is just unreal. Once again Mitch is on Fire. The whole instrumental solo for Mitch but as well as the rest of the band is just gorgeous and mind blowing. I’m so excited to watch Mitch each night on tour to see how much he changes his solo.

Sunflower, Vol. 6

This is a banger. I just want to dance all day long to this song. His little dances were killing me. I also love that Adam is off in his world just feeling the music deep in his soul. Harry is just in his element. Dancing his little heart out. Also, can we just talk about his sweet little noises at the end. Be still my heart. I love him so much.

Canyon Moon

His dedication to Jenny melted my heart. This is another that is just on a whole other level live. His voice is just amazing. The crowd sings back to Harry, clapping along with a song that bring energy to any concert it’s played at.

Treat People With Kindness

On the first listen of the album, this song was towards the bottom of my list (and let me be frank and say that I loved every song on the first listen) now that I have heard it live it’s one that is a favorite in the live setting. The way the crowd sang along and the fact that he could dance during the chorus just makes my heart beam. He was so happy that he has a song he can prance around the stage while his message of kindness is being blasted to the thousands of people in the room.

Fine Line

Wow. This song. The musicality of this song not only on the album but live is just... wow. The rawness is his voice hits my heart causes my sobs to pour. You can feel his pain, his sadness, his hurt in the beginning of the song. As the song progresses, the lyrics don’t change but a feeling of hope, freedom, and happiness overwhelmed me. We will be alright. Thank you Harry. I need that reassurance in my life right now. It was beautiful. Another top favorite.

Sign of the Times

Everyone in their life needs to experience Sing of the Times live. Being able to hear a song that has been part of my every day for years, was just unreal. I lost it even more, didn’t think it was possible but I did. The crowd sings every word with love and it is felt all around me. Wow. Just wow. A moment I will never forget.

Landslide

Um, did that legit just happen because FREAKING STEVIE NICKS. Like that just doesn’t happen at any concert and here she is, standing on stage with Harry!! Their voices melt together so beautifully and my life is forever changed.

What Makes You Beautiful

A song that when I’m going through videos from shows, I usually will watch a few clips but don’t spend a massive amount of time on. This song live is just an out of body experience. The whole room was dancing and singing louder than the speakers can play. Seriously such an amazing experience to dance along with Harry.

Wonderful Christmastime

Holy crap is he seriously singing a Christmas song??? Oh my goodness he has blessed us and this is just the cherry on top. The glitter falling from the ceiling is perfect and his happiness shines brighter than all the Christmas lights in the world.

Kiwi

Pretty sure I have never danced and sang so loud and hard in my life. This was just a moment that I have watched online so many times that it was such an experience to be there in person to dance and sing along with him. And the whale!! Oh goodness. What a way to end the show.

My heart has exploded and my emotions are raw as the show ends and Harry blows kisses to us all. This album is a blessing to us all and being there to hear it live is something I will never forget.

Thank you to @whoopsharrystyles for being my person. This was something that needed to be experienced for the first time with someone who I love and someone who would allow me to loose my crap and be a mess and not make me feel bad about it. You gave me that place. And for that I can never thank you enough. As my plane lands and I finish my final thoughts, I’m emotional, crying again and thankful for this experience. I pray that every single one of you will be able to experience this at least once in your life.