"I gasp for air. I am so deep, I cannot tell whether I am sinking deeper or swimming."

The first time i saw you I was in W hall heading to sit with everyone. I think it was picture day when I really noticed you. I remember texting Erin how I just wanted to throw you up against the locker and kiss you all over. You just pulled me in almost automatically. I wanted YOU & I always get what I want. I had continued to make sure I found you everyday until I saw you got your hair cut and I complimented you and you just nodded. That was a HUGE step for me. I hadn't talked to anyone else first. It was like a miracle. So lip sync rolled around and I had made sure I went, I was told you did stage crew by Ed and that he thought I'd really like you. I made sure everyone there knew I was watching you as I just giggled and blushed at you working the sound board or lights, I don't remember. Pretty sure you didn't even know I existed butttt I wanted you and I was going to get you. I'm not sure if it was that weekend or the next but I kept looking for you on Facebook. I didn't know your last name so I was looking everywhere. I finally found you while looking through all who was invited to Marisa's party on my ride home with dad to scrap and added you ! We were in gym together by now so it wouldn't be too awkward that I just randomly added you. You messaged me right away and I couldn't breathe. I blushed and just couldn't handle my self. The next big moments were kinda interesting. I came to stage crew and you were trying to get me to build something.. I made sure I couldn't do it so you'd help. You did 😉 it was wonderful. You touched my hand trying to help me drill and I couldn't breathe I just wanted to kiss you so bad I just ahhhhh😊😊😊😊😊 I think later you walked home with me and everyone and we hung out and Ronnie picked us up & it was interesting. That night was the first time in almost two weeks that "boyfriend" called to talk to me. He never talked to me. I called him later that night just for him to tell me he cheated on me. That's all he wanted to say. Now that probably wasn't one of my proudest moments. It wasn't me to want so badly to be with someone else during a relationship. But really, that wasn't a relationship at all. I broke up with him almost a day later and went trick or treating with you. Holding your hand all night was a magical feeling. Still don't know why you didn't want me to kiss you on the cheek at the end of the night, but you coming over to give me a peck back ahh😍 then November 4th you did that cute check yes or no WHICH I still have in my phone. I got what I wanted 😏 We've been through sooo much. Long distance relationships are hard. We're not your average ldr either. Even though it didn't start this way.. a year later I couldn't be happier. I never thought I'd ever be with someone who made me this happy & kept me going day after day. I thank God everyday for you. Thank you for putting up with my b.s for this long. I love you to the moon & back 💍 forever