#11252019

I think the hardest part of 2019 was losing a friend as close as Vanessa, fuck Tiffany and that whole breakup situation; the real heartache came from Nessa. I still talk to her sister and mom just in the hopes of being able to hear how she is, but they think I want them to tell she’s horrible so they just spill drama; I want to know how she is, if she’s healthier without her mom in her life, if she likes her new job, if she enjoys living with Kaiden. I want my best friend and driving partner back. But I’m also terrified to know who she is now. I wonder if she’ll be at Jordan’s wedding n February? I’m bringing Andy to the wedding cause I know I’ll need someone with me but I wonder if Ness is gonna go or not. I know she didn’t accept being a bridesmaid and I feel like she turned that down because of me, which sucks because I wouldn’t have done anything. I miss her like crazy but I really hope she’s doing better.