#11172015

Today he told me he loved me.

My eyes feel so heavy right now. This morning I was brimming with energy, felt social, and couldn’t be bothered. Now I feel tired, anxious, fatigued, worried, disappointed, and empty. Little things add up in a day. I feel a little lost right now. My gut is telling me to take time off. My brain is telling me I can’t and that I’m almost there. My gut is saying this isn’t what I actually want. My brain is telling me yes I do and not to take the easy way out. My gut is saying I need to go far away, relax, and live a little before diving into “real life.” My brain is saying that I’m too far in to quit now and that I should have taken that chance a long time ago. And as much as I want to listen to my gut, I’m going to defer to my brain. But I don’t really think it’s a choice at this point.