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Happy Birthday Yuta!!! 💚🐙💚

“What can I say at this point? You’re my person, and the love of my life. Through everything, you’re right by my side, always trying to help me be the person I know you deserve. Thanks for teaching me the joys of cheese and how to enjoy the finer things. Every day I’m so thankful we’re going through life together, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Thank you for such an extravagant weekend, let’s see what our fifth year brings! Love you more”

Not even two months later you fucking left me overnight.

Trying to help you be the person you know I deserve? So you already knew you weren’t enough.

You wouldn’t have it any other way? You are actually having it the polar opposite way. You’re erasing every trace of me from your life. I’m fucking terrified to see what’s next.

I am really just running in circles here, constantly. I mean, this is the worst shit, the worst pain I’ve ever been in. Because you chose to be without me. You chose to start over in the city you told me you hated. You threw yourself in another girl’s friend group fucking immediately, really following up on “finding yourself” after being in relationships for the past seven years. What a fun little fucking pattern, you lying sociopath! I can’t believe you have the audacity and confidence to just call me like you don’t make me sick every single night.

And here I am again, depressed as shit because I never wanted to feel this way about you. Because you told me we were forever, and turned it all around in a day. You don’t seem to realize how utterly crushing that is. It haunts me all the fucking time.