#101716

I am not swayed nor payed,

so,

I have known you for three months now. Been official with you for almost two. I can’t help but feel like it’s been a hell of a lot longer than that. I feel like I’ve been falling in love with you over and over again for ages. And I couldn’t be happier. Talking to you everyday for these past months has been great. I love getting to know you more and more everyday.

We spent a good part of the day yesterday together and all day today. Honestly, there is no one else I would rather spend my time with. No one else I would rather get a Costco membership with or watch movies and cuddle all day with. You are all I could ever ask for.

Whenever I tell you that you are the best girlfriend ever you always hit me with an “I don’t even feel like I am doing anything.” I know you can’t see what you are doing, but I can. You treat me well. You don’t take advantage of me, you show appreciation for my actions, and you show appreciation for me through your actions. I can tell you go out of your way to do certain things for me even though you say it’s “no big deal.” Even though it’s only been a short three months. You have treated me better than any other girl has. I don’t deserve you, but I’m glad I get to call you mine.

I’ve been fairly anxious as of recent. Due in no part by you or your actions. It’s just that every time, excluding a few, that I make it to this time period in a relationship. Everything goes to shit. For some reason, I am waiting for you to end it because you have found someone better, or I’m waiting for you to end it because I am not enough for you. It always happens and I don’t know why. I’m freaking out for no reason, I know. But I just can’t help it. All day in the back of my mind that thought has been nagging at me and it won’t stop. I don’t want to lose you and I don’t want to lose us.