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for example, you say something.  i say the same thing back to you.  I'M the one that's wrong.  I'M the one that's weird.  I'M the one that gets in trouble.

another example, i treat you a certain way.  i'm super weird.  someone else treats you the same way.  you're happy, and you revel in it.  someone else treats someone else in the same way that i was getting hated for, they both are completely fine and are comfortable with whatever is going on.  everyone supports them and thinks they're the coolest.  but if i'm ever involved, "no, tiana.  stop.  that's so strange."

lt's been a loooong time since I've written about my life. Sometime earlier this week I got distracted from my work and went back to the Days On Mars page. I read through my more personal posts, and I realized that I enjoyed writing about my daily life on here. So I will try to update this area a bit more often.

Currently, I'm taking a Greek & Roman Mythology class and I've realized one thing: All of the gods are super horny. LIKE-NO-OTHER. Here, I'll give you a fine example:

Before Zeus, the King of Gods, there were just beings that signified the earth, the underworld, sexual desire, the sky/heaven, night, darkness, and other things. Two of those beings are named Gaia (earth) and Ouranos (Sky/heaven). Logically, the sky is always on top of the earth (as my teacher would describe it), so they're constantly making babies. HAHA they have so many children, some of which include the Titans (Cronos, Iapetos, Rheia, and others). 

School life has been pretty okay. A lot of things have been piling up on each other though. My 3D modeling and web programming homework and online mythology quizzes are all due on Wednesday. Isn't that fantastic?? Its really forcing me to get my act together and finish things ahead of time. But that hasn't exactly been working... Time has been passing by so quickly lately; I feel like I don't have enough time to do everything.

As of late, though, I've been really stressed out about a lot of other things. School work, for one, is definitely a stress source. There's also the problem of me not being in a major. I've come to the decision that I'm going to transfer schools. I already applied to UO and I'm in the process of applying to OSU and Purdue. The worst thing is that I'm completely banking on UO to accept me into their school. I know that I should apply to other schools, or look into and apply to them. My parents keep nagging me whenever I talk to them on the phone or FaceTime them. Before, I would call my parents as a way to de-stress myself from schoolwork and other things. Now, I don't call them as often because they stress me out so much from worrying. I know that they're worried about my academic situation and feel helpless because they can't do anything from home. But because they keep asking me if I did this, or if I did that yet, or why haven't I done it yet, or scolding me for not doing something during the summer when I had the time, I get so stressed out and frustrated at them. It's like they don't see that I can be responsible on my own, that I can prioritize things, or that I can be assertive when I want to be. I get so frustrated at them that I raise my voice back at them so that they can hear me out and I show them that I CAN DO IT. 

This is the first time I've ever raised my voice at my parents... I'm not sure if this is a good thing. It might be a good thing because they can finally hear my opinion on things and I'm not afraid of what they might thing of it. But the reason why I'm unsure of it being good is because I don't like acting like this towards them. It makes me sad when I have to do that to them...