#100studydays

The relationship I have with myself is one in which my body, mind and spirit interact with each other. I recognize that I am my body, I do live in it forever, I do know that I have the responsibility to take care of it, and that if I treat it right, my body always is going to be grateful. My mind is moving constantly, besides I still manage to organize it, keep it wide open, to let whatever is harmful out, and welcome new possibilities. My spirit is strong, helps me heal, as if about blood cells we could talk, my spirit will help my body remove whatever that does not belong.

One could think that I should accept the three parts of me, unconditionally. I might ask, do I trust them? Do I believe in them? Well, honestly there is a long way to go and there is still a lot of climbing left.

I need to accept that I cannot achieve my goals if I am constantly working alone. Teaming up, building the community, participating with others. All of it is absolutely necessary.

The same should be with myself. Let me explain, if my body, mind and soul are all capable of changing, becoming better. Also all of them interact, and basically are one itself, acknowledging that one cannot exist without the other. Then, them working together should be a given. It must be a rule. In what way? building them up is not possible if it is done separately. A connection should be made, which is only achievable if one recognizes the other, trusts it and dialogues with it. To finally, be able to move up by bringing them together, no one is left behind.

You could make that relationship with the most dearest people in your life. You do not want to be on the top, with all the richest and know your family is suffering without being able to do something about it. You would not want to visit a friend and feel pity of them. You do not want to leave the love of your life because he does not have the means as you do. If I am on top, I want to bring everybody with me. Build a community, team up because it is not me carrying or me being held. No, it is everyone working together to achieve an objective.

Como empecé en fin de semana hice menos cosas. Mi To-Do list consistía en estudiar algo de gramática en inglés ( que aunque se hablarlo muy bien y de hecho trabajo en el idioma, mi gramática es terrible).

Empecé a estudiar italiano usando Duolingo, así que realice un “círculo” que es como he decidido llamarlo.

Y claro leer el día uno y realizar el escrito del journal de Self-Love que es el libro que leemos juntos con @studythings

He gastado mucho tiempo en buscar quien soy y en juzgarme por mis acciones, en lugar de dar mi mayor esfuerzo en mis problemas o situaciones actuales. Ahora mismo mi vida está un poco desordenada y lo único que me podría ayudar a darle un buen camino es solo dar lo mejor de mi y aprovechar cada segundo.

If my siblings fail a test, make mistakes, even whem I am really upset, I will always feel love towards them, not because I have to but because I know they just are worthy of it.

The simple fact of being born a human makes you worthy.

I should treat myself the same way I treat other, I need to consider myself worthy of love.

I used to accept that even though I could not tell if I loved myself, I was living with the fact that I had to still stablish a convivence relationship with my own self. Because I still have to eat for me, learn for me, and basically look at me every single day, so why at least not be livable.

Now I think in a different way, it is not enough to just tolerate myself. Not only I must accept that I think in some way, but I also have to embrace it. I need to be able to love myself no matter what, and bring kindness everywhere I go.

My intention today is: Take all the love I am able to give everyone else, and give it to me as well. Love is actually an inexhaustible resource

Dear myself

During the past week we learned how important it is to reframe the way we think about ourselves. To reframe our way of thinking in general, our self talk must be as it is when we speak to someone we care about, someone we love.

Our relationship has had its ups and downs over the last years but this long way we have come will not be taken for granted, every little step will take us towards a better understandment of each other.

It is easy to judge, as if it was almost something out of our control, deep inside, natural, even genetic. Besides what I got from this past week is that it is actually not natural, it does not come from my instincts. It comes from a place of pain and sadness that is not my world, just a little part of it.

Well that would be all for this week, I am learning how to be kinder towards myself and everyone else...that way I can learn how to be a better me and how to be better for the people I love.

I was thinking about the emotional needs that I might have, what came to my mind was the following:

I need to feel understood, it is important for me that people feel empathy, put themselves in my shoes. but I was wondering, why is it so important foe me that people look after understanding me?

Well, I reflected on it and asked myself what goes after I feel understood, and came to the conclusion that is acceptation what I am actually after.

But then, do I look for understandment of the other people I interact with? is it possible for me to put myself in everyone shoes?

Well, I do not know if it might be possible, but I do know that it is difficult for me to even try to understand myself, I take it for granted and eventually find that I dont accept myself how I am, I constantly look for a change, as if I wished to become someone completely different instead of working on becoming the best version of myself. I constantly find myself questioning my actions, as if they came from a dark, incomprehensible place and not my own person.

I can take the lead and accept how I am, the messier parts of me, and the ones people tend to admire the most, all of it is in me and is also in me to understand it, once I do it I can technically do whatever I want with it, which could make everything easier.

As I was writing about yesterday, recently I did some embarrassing things and my response was not as bad as I could think it could be. The thing is, it was easier because the people i embarrassed myself in front of were people who cared about me and would not lose their respect towards me.

Right after I was reflecting on said situation, I found that someone who is a stranger also had to suffer the results of my lack of control last Sunday.

Out of shame I just cut any links towards them, and even though I needed to communicate I was really ashamed to just speak ever again.

This type of days were I feel ashamed of myself are really challenging, especially because I know that this is not something I want to feel for the people I care about, but I still do it towards me, as if I could not care about myself or as if it was difficult to do so.

I will compromise myself to treat me as a dear friend and not as an unknown character whom I can judge and make feel bad withouth consequences

Last night I got into many circumstances that were not as pleasant as one could think. Maybe I could be embarrassed or sad because I was not the person I aspire to be. But then there is that, one can not be judging ourselves because of a series of circumstances. It is not the way humanity works and it is not the way I will change my behavior and become that person.

So today I am being gentle with myself, I will not judge myself besides I will be joyful, it makes me laugh because what was I thinking. Well today I woke up at 6am! got a good night of sleep and I am ready to start.

I love how joyful I am, how people around me loves and cares about me.

Ambos estamos muy emocionados de comenzar nuestros 100 días de estudio.

Vamos a establecer algunas reglas para este periodo que comienza y así poder apoyarnos en el proceso

Guidelines

*Each day we will complete a study goal set individually

*Self discipline is the key

*We will track our progress here

*Each day we will read a section of the book we are reading together

*The 100 days are consecutive.