#10.23.12

WELL

Based on tweets from Caroline Watson, Zayn and Helen Dixon, we know the shoot was the 23rd and 24th.

The BTS video starts with the surf scene, the sailor outfits and the car scenes. Zayn's hair is black in all of these scenes. Then Niall says they're going skiing in the morning, which implies day two. After the ski shots, Louis (still in his ski outfit) describes what they're doing next, and explains the jail scene, which implies jail + ski on same day. Zayn's hair is blonde for the jail scene (and covered in the ski scene). This would match up with Helen tweeting Paul Roberts and making it sound like their work on the video was the 24th for the jail scenes.

SO

Surf, sailor and car scenes = 10.23

Skiiing and jail scenes = 10.24

Horray!  I got my practicum!!! See, all I had to do was point my energy to the stars and I got it!  Primary Children's here I come...and everyone is jealous :)  

Anyway, barb was talking to me today about listening to what my inside self is telling me, and its kinda a cool thought, I mean, she has talked about it before, but really taking the time to LISTEN to myself and my needs and wants is a cool thought.  Its something that really needs time to learn to do, but I think once I do it will be awesome.

I need to start working on the other portions of my self care goals now that I have actually started journaling. Yoga, meditation, the whole lot...

I thought of you today as usual. There’s nothing much I can ramble on about tonight. I’m just trying to process everything that’s been going on in the midst of this whole issue. I’m really trying my best here to accept what’s been going on and to treat it as if I shouldn’t be worried about it, or anything.

I just remind myself that we’re miles away from each other and there’s possibly nothing I can do or say that would change the outcome unless if this was more of a up front and personal thing. Which, it’ll probably never be because even though I know for the fact that we’ll finally meet each other someday, I think everything that I wanted to say would be dropped. We’ll start all over with a simple hello or with some coffee together.

I’m under a lot of grief at this very moment. I just feel like such a fuck-up. Maybe it’s my fault. I mean it could be the fact that just maybe, I never could have delivered what you were looking for or wanted. But that okay. I’m so use to it. I’m always that person who’s came this close and then flops in the end because either it was not enough to seal the deal or because blindly, I’m not meant to go all the way.

1 = |2-3| * |1-2|

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