#1.35

How did you two weave as one?

Been so tired of discussing my future

Forgot to talk about my past

How I've been branded by a culture

That feels like it won't last

As a kid they told me I'm so mature

Now I should be but feel like a child

Whenever I feel so unsure

And my emotions will run wild

Desperate need to be reassured

There's sides of life that are more mild

That this won't need to keep being endured

That problems won't only be stacked and piled

That this illness can be cured

And my sight won't always be this obscured

Tunnel vision - heart is racing

Can't keep up with the issues I'm facing

I'm gonna crash & need to be bracing

So scared of the hurt this will be placing

On lifes I need to be secured

I need to be secured

Need to be safe

It's not time yet to enter my grave

Need to fight and to be brave

To stop being my demon's slave

It's time to fucken misbehave

Take what I want and what I crave

Too long I've been depraved

Got my nightmares in my skin engraved

Will color them like war paint

Remembrance of what I bested but kept me pained

What made me a sinner and murdered the saint

What kept me restless and made me faint

Still too rarely I complained

Now it’s time to break the restraint

Might be too strong but maybe it ain't

I brake out of my cage

Give freedom to my rage

Never stop to not engage

Let it rampage

Take space and build up a stage

Show them the outrage

The blood splatters on a blank page

1.35

my pincers go 

in to da sky

ho boy uh oh