#082417

I don’t want to be only friends with you I want to be more than friends but I know I can’t have that. I don’t know how to be only friends with you… I don’t know how to care less for you I don’t know how to love you like a friend and not like a lover. I want to call you and tell you about my day but do friends do that? I don’t know what counts as friendship or a relationship… I miss you so much… I’m scared to be friends with you what if I fall for you more and just end up hurting myself more? I saw a post that said people who were in relationship and are still friends are either still in love with another or not at all…

i still think about you everyday i still think about if you had a good day at work and if you ate today. just because im not messaging you does not mean that i dont love you anymore...i had to stop talking to you or i need to try and stop talking to you because you will never be mine again. If i keep talking I will end up looking at the smallest details and wonder how you’re doing without asking about it. I cant afford to hurt myself more than I already have...

When did you really stop loving me?