#0726

06/18th 🆚️ 07/10th

I've lost a lot of mass between may and June (⬅️) dealing with family troubles. I decided to take a health break for a few weeks. Back when I made my first progresses at the gym i would get anxious and insecure at the thought of stopping my training. But after a while i realised that this whole project is about treating your body right.

This time I was prepared, I let myself go long enough to really wanna go back to the gym, i took the time to compose a proper workout plan, that break may have "shrunken" me but it also made me grow, i've been back to the gym for two weeks now and i'm feeling the gains like i haven't i a while (➡️).

I'll keep that plan for two months and see how my body changes.

Happy Byler dayyyyy :D

I want to sit where she is currently laid, and I can’t just move her (though I got that blanket in the background out specifically if the hopes she’d move onto it) but, im just going to have to sit somewhere else

This evening he was there again. Two hours, just sitting there. Headlights on, except when he gets out to smoke, then he kills them completely. He's become bolder. He leans against the car and looks up, unhurried, like he has nowhere else to be and nothing to hide. He wants me to notice. He's always wanted me to notice.

The air feels charged again, the way it always does when he's near. That current returning in the space between us, familiar now, after a year of days and nights just like this one.

When I'm outside on my balcony, I can feel his eyes find me before I find him. A slow, familiar tension tightening deep inside me. Neither of us looks away. He knows what he's doing. He's always known. He watches me, and he knows I watch him too.