#071419

hi no one cares but im thinking of self harming right now. ive been 1 1/2 years clean. i doubt that anyone cares but. i feel very sad. like sad. empty. sad right now. i just dont think life is for me. life has never been great and it has never given me anything to be happy about. i know that life is how you make it. but im too confined. too powerless. i feel like i cant control my own life. and my dad- he's a nice guy... but he's selfish, prideful. and i feel like all of these shit is because of him. i love him- i really do. i sometimes think if im envious of other people or if im just comparing myself to them because im an useless member of society. either way... it doesnt change the fact that life is not worth living. i dont belong here. life. is not for everyone.