#07042013

#FlashBackFriday #CemYilmaz #07042013 Hokkabaz'ın DVD'sinin üstüne "Biraz sevgiyle hayatta her şey mümkün olabilir.." yazar mısın diye sordum, şaşırmış, hoşuna gitmiş, 'Yazarım tabi Cihan'cığım' deyip beni kırmamıştı, bundan tam 4 yıl önce bugün, sağolsun.. Çok zengin olmadığımız için eve çağırmaya yüzümüz yoktu ama yine de seviyoruz, seviliyoruz demek ki ;) (Kanyon)

It’s my birthday today and I don’t feel excited at all. I am so afraid of growing up. When I was 15, my first dream came true. When I was 16, the second one did. Now I am 17, I wanna live my dreams again, but now is when my life begins. From now on I will have to study to go to college, then find a job. Then I’ll spend 4 years in college and the entire life working hard to make money. I’m afraid I don’t make money enough to live my dreams again. I feel as if the good part of my life is gone. Gosh, I always hated getting older, but now I really have reasons. I don’t like this feeling. Growing older takes away all my chances of being infinite again. It will never be the same. I’m being a drama queen, I know. It’s just that I can already smell the tears coming from inside of me. I also miss Charlie.