#05102025

it really sucks that I was pretty much the same weight for 2-3 years (like a 7 pound range) and even though i hadn't reached my goal weight, i had never been so consistently low/in my good range for such a long time. it seemed i had reached an equilibrium between how much i ate and my weight and my activity level. I was actually eating consistently and having actual meals and felt like I had finally gotten the hang of prioritizing whole foods but still being relaxed/indulging. I wasn't constantly denigrating what I ate or my weight. I kinda ate whatever I wanted because, it seems, I had finally realized how to eat intuitively, without agonizing over every decision. I think i was calmer about myself/body than i'd ever been before. sure I'm always going to want to lose more weight but i was actually pretty chill, especially in hindsight.