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So looking back at my previous blog posts I sound like one sad ass mothafucka. Honestly I still probably do feel that way deep deep down inside of me but at this point I feel as if my life as accumulated so much adrenaline that I really don’t have time to care about any of the little mundane things as well as the bigger picture. For some reason, I’ve been a little more careless… Or a lot more careless but at the same time I feel like this “life adrenaline” can be put to use! 3 weeks has passed since my last post and I feel like in those three weeks I’ve realized many things. Again, my life goes in a very fast pace, somehow. Because sometimes it feels like my life isn’t going anywhere but. Those three weeks helped me realize a lot of things. It’s just things that I’ve realized, don’t really feel like typing them down. Also, I met Love. It’s weird I know, it’s kinda like I just met him but I want to try. Maybe I don’t know. He’s a good guy. And in all seriousness I can see him help me be a better person. Now in my communications class w e did this activity where we gauge rewards and costs and predict an outcome for the relationship of whoever the rewards and costs go to, and honestly I feel like Love has a lot more to offer for me than for me to him. I don’t know what to do and I’m not much of a sentimental person so, even me devoting a little of my time to him seems soo much to me though he probably wouldn’t be able to see that. It’s normal for people to do what I do, but it’s a big deal to me. I guess it kind of just makes me realize that I am a selfish person and because I’m so selfish I have so many doubts. It sucks thinking this way, like I’m always on my toes when in reality I might not even have to be that way. Everything might just be perfectly fine but because I have these doubts it’s totally ruining to bigger picture for me which I don’t really know how to feel about. Anyway, I need to update this a lot more just because I probably need to blow out some more steam from all of the events happening in my life.

Christoph Kramer singing the german national anthem (requested by anon) (x)

trad. eng-pt: nessa @ dnhbrasil

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