#04.29.19

i’m seeing blue, aqua, every shade of green and sparkling like jewelry; the sun hits my face and warbles where the water touches it, white light going stray, and i’m sinking, sinking, sinking. my heart feels light in my chest, like the rest of me might be dropping but it’s floating, it’s buoyant, pushing against my chest and trying so, so hard to break the surface, to gravitate back to where you are. but you didn’t want me.