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"Thank you for making all the blurry days, a clear one."

- We're talking nung isang araw or lagi na ang swerte natin kasi 28 yung number kung kailan mo ako sinagot kasi ung February ay walang 29. Kung meron man, after 4 years pa. Pero sa isip isip ko, kahit anong oras, araw o buwan mo ako sinagot o naging tayo, maswerte ako kasi minamahal mo ako at mahal na mahal kita.

Salamat sa pananatili sa'kin. Mahal na mahal kita at araw araw kitang mamahalin lalo na sa mga araw na ayaw mong mahalin ang sarili mo.

Faith in kids restored.

Kalagitnaan ng byahe namin, biglang sabi ng driver, "Ma'am napansin nyo ba yung cellphone ko?". Wala naman humablot, or lumapit sa motor.

So tinawagan ko yung number ni Kuya. Kinabahan pa kami nung una kasi pinatay yung phone after ilang ring. Then triny ko uli, sinagot ng isang babae. Tapos sabi nasa Bluebos daw sila.

Binalikan namin ni kuya yung lugar, tapos true enough hinihintay kami nung dalawang teenager na to.

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Rhetorical Question: Do you ever wish you’d take your own advice?

While I’ve been busy grappling with the Black Dog these past few weeks, I’ve also been grappling with some fandom-related questions. One of the biggest ones is how do I reconcile my offering advice like...

Anon, despite how you wrote your question, I take your meaning. I sense you don’t like shipping. I don’t like a whole lot o’ things discussed in this fandom. Guess what? None of it is going away. The trick — and I am far from mastering it — is to immerse yourself in what you enjoy and ignore what you don’t. https://boyneriver-fraser.tumblr.com/post/181916153684/why-are-adult-women-so-obsessed-with-a-theory-they

... when I read every stinkin’ post while scrolling through my dashboard AND every sitnkin’ comment on (almost) all those posts? 😱

On one hand, it’s good to read others’ opinions and consider opposing viewpoints to challenge your own opinions. On the other hand, in my case, the frustration I experience is often an open invitation rushed to the Migraine Fairy. 🤕

On one hand, there is no much bullshit bandied about, it can be mind numbing. On the other hand, I’ve learned some fascinating random things I might not have learned anywhere else. 😀

And… so very much of the fandom history — the nitty gritty stuff that happened pre-November 2015 or subsequently when I wasn’t paying attention — I’ve learned BECAUSE I’ve read every stinkin’ post while scrolling through my dashboard AND every sitnkin’ comment on (almost) all those posts. There’s a lot o’ wheat among the chaff. 👩🏻‍🌾

[K and/or L… if you’re reading this drivel, I know you’re shaking your heads and laughing (at me). Take two Aspirins and text me (later) in the morning. 😎 My first word WAS “rhetorical”...]

Take your own advice, Boynie. Immerse yourself in what you enjoy and ignore what you don’t.

If only I could Zen-handle my dashboard like I can Zen-handle the show and Zen-handle the ship… Can you say “foreshadowing?” Sure. I knew you could.

February 28, 2019

Gif: Claire & Jamie @manders1984​

I know a lot of people — of all ages and stages — who read Outlander and watch Outlander and have never HEARD of the online fandom, much less participate in it. 😳 One of them recently flew across the Canadian prairie to spend eight sleeps with me and the wee cheeties. And boy, were her arms tired.

Sally, which isn’t her real name, is a vibrant, well-educated, well-travelled, married mother-of-two-teenagers, with a professional career and a ton o’ personality. She read The Books long before I’d heard of The Show or knew there were books. She’s watched The Show since Claire first said, “Strange, the things you remember” on August 9, 2014.

Sally, not as illustrated

One of the first things Sally cheerily said to me once she settled in was, “The season finale is Sunday night, right?” THEE season finale…

I said, “Right” because I don’t lie to my guests until they’ve been here for at least one sleep and asked her what she thought of Season 4.

She said, “I love it. It’s one of my favourite seasons.”

🎶 DUN DUN DUN… 🎶 🤯

I’ll pause while the majority of you pick yourselves up off the floor and adjust your rolling eyes. (Commence Music-On-Hold)

…

Let’s review. Sally is a vibrant, well-educated, well-travelled, married-mother-of-two-teenagers with a professional career and a ton o’ personality. And she enjoyed Season 4. (Reinstitute Music-On-Hold)

…

Sally doesn’t Tumblr. She doesn’t Tweet. She doesn’t use Instagram or Facebook or any social media. She has no idea who Caitriona Balfe or Matthew B Roberts or Jon Gary Steele is beyond names and faces on the TV screen. Nor does she care. The horror! The horror! 😱

Rewind to that torturous week between 4x12 Providence and THEE Season Finale, if you dare: I told me ol’ pals @saint-hildegard-of-bingen and @wherethepupsare and the former @little-wine-lac a long and winding story — quelle surprise — about my having been an “easily contented” child. Boyneriver-Fraser: An Easily Contented Child available on iTunes and in the Kindle Store, March 14.

The story ended with:

It would seem that Boynie is still easily contented. I enjoyed Providence, start to finish. I was entertained, intrigued, and content. So content that when my eyes moved to the clock during a commercial, I was stunned to see it was 1:03 a.m., one hour and three minutes into the broadcast. Boredom and disappointment were strangers to me. Absolutely I would have enjoyed “more Claire and Jamie,” but I did not miss them. The story and the other characters maintained my interest, so much so, before I looked at the clock, I didn’t realize the episode was imminently over…

My only conclusion is, whatever it is I need from Outlander-on-TV, I’m getting. 

🤷🏻‍♀️

Has anyone ever mentioned I (had been) a vibrant, well-educated, well-travelled, single-mother-of-two-wee-cheeties, (who had) a professional career and fakes a ton o’ personality? (Re-Reinstitute Music-On-Hold)

…

My point — and I do have one thank you, Ellen — is there ARE intelligent people who have read The Books (and who don’t use social media and/or communicate with Outlander personnel disqualifying them for sycophant status) and who STILL ENJOY the show.

I’ll be talking a bit more about them — and how we could all get along, short of joining hands and singing Kumbaya — when I offer more ridiculous drivel my thoughts on some-things-Zen, as foreshadowed in my previous post. Now’s as good a time as any to unfollow me. Blame Tumblr. Hurry. Hurry hard.

If only I could Zen-handle my dashboard like I can Zen-handle the show and Zen-handle the ship… Can you say “foreshadowing?” Sure. I knew you could. Is there an echo in here?

February 28, 2019

Gifs: Sally Brown - Pinterest, Zen Cats giphy.com