Dear Sydney Yu,

I’m really going to miss us and what we had. Everything happens for a reason right? We talked everything out and this is the best road we should take. I’m going to miss having you carry chap stick for my chappy lips and I won’t have someone taking my spare change because I hate holding it. I’m going to miss holding you in my arms and holding your hands; I’ll miss your touch and how your fingers fit perfectly between the gaps of mine. There isn’t going to be anyone to cuddle with and share all the happy moments together but that’s okay! I’m glad we ended on good terms and I respect your decision to be with him. I know he makes you happier and will treat you better than I ever could. I’m sorry that I couldn’t be “that guy” for you. All of this will be for the better. Life will move on and I can’t keep dwelling on the past. With or without you I will make it through this. You left me amazing memories to hold onto. I’ll take this as an experience. Who knows what may happen in the future?

I’ll always be here for you and just know that I care a lot about you. If he hurts you, I will murder that nigga. May you be happy with whoever you end up being with. I’m here to send you my best wishes and regard. Last long and always be happy. :) This is the last time I’ll be calling you this, Take care princess. It’s really hard letting all of this go but i need to, for my sake and yours. 

February 26-27, 2011

Saturday. Went to church. Kuya Jr picked me up at the park. Chilled at his house for a bit. Ate, played some sudoku, and I took a nap. Went to the Union apartment. Tie Dye night! It was alright. Got picked up by father, FINALLY. Then went to Chino. Had dinner, then watched shows with my papa. Then slept.

Today<3 Hammy picked me up. Went to KFC to look for a gift for Jon, lol. A gift card from there. d; Then finally got some thrifty ice cream (: Walked around that plaza, then got a gift for Jon at BK. Gift card! How lame, frkn fatties. lol. But yeah, wanted to kill time so we chilled at this park that we randomly just found. Then we finally headed to Jon's house for his birthday bbq thang. It was pretty chill. Left early and went to Harkins and watched The Roommate. It was lame. d; Chilled at another park, lol. Got some McD's, then he dropped me home. Papa dropped me to LA. Went online, got drunk IM's and texts. Now just waiting for his call. Hehe, I won btw ;D

"Overwhelmed". And since I moved my CPU chair next to the window I've only wanted to jump out of it lately instead of being productive.

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I will just finish the novel paragraph shit tomorrow even if I don't have the book